wisdom yet again

went for my first care group yesterday..
it was quite nice..everyone's receptive..ahhaa though there were only three of us excluding the cg leader gerry...
by His grace...as time passes..hopefully i'll be more comfortable ard bernice...
but newaes..i'm makin a mental note for lessons learnt in some chapters of the bible..
i think it would be apt if one could talk about a message by quoting straight from the bible..
yep..i don't really wan to be a "oh it's sunday and it's time for church"
i would rather i know more bout the Gospel and His wisdom..
newaes talkin bout wisdom..
i was pissed yesterday over money...
my sis kept nagging at me for spending money..
told her i jus wanted to streak my hair purple and she gave me a lashing..
using examples on CNY!like how i spent so much on a long sleeved shirt..prom! harlow prom is a different matter from my shoppin...spoilt my phone and had to change a new one!harlow i can't be blamed if technology decides to leave me in the lurch rite..
blah blah..super pissed..like come on i'm really tired of dressing in pe tshirt for the past few months..now's really the time to dress at least a lil nicer and stuff..haven't been shoppin for months..now tat everything's over..at least i can go out and breathe some fresh air in fresh clothes rite..
oh wells..and so i went to the kitchen looked out of the window and kept on talkin to God...
tellin Him bout my money stuff..tat day i was pissed cos i was runnin a budget deficit..it didn't help when i cldn't find the savage garden chord books..
tat day..i kept on thinkin..lamenting..so many things to buy with so little money..
then suddenly..with jus a snap of fingers...
i jus kept on talkin and talking..
and suddenly i realised tat money was a curse...of course in a spiritual intelligent way of lookin at it..i listened to the sermon on the benefits of tithing..and still on some services i wouldn't tithe..
in the back of my head i'll be thinkin tat the church already recieves so much from the wealthy businessmen..so it's okie and stuff..
but it jus dawned to me bout wat pastor said bout tithing..
tat the money goin ard in this world is cursed...yea..it made me down and out..it made my sister nag at me..it made me pissed..how is it not a curse?
and slowly a thought led to another..
yep..it's time to understand the true meaning of tithing..
i told myself..i give money not cos i expect more in return..like wat renfu's mother thinks..
i really jus wan to give the money cos i jus wan to keep it aside for the sanctification of the Lord..to keep tat amount..no matter how small.away from the world circulation of cursed money...
yea another point to add...if money's not cursed..why is everyone so preoccupied with makin more money..
everything's about money..everything..even the choices tat we students at this age make..it's all bout practicality instead of chasing some passion tat we hav inside...
sighs..tat's another matter i shall talk about it another day..
newaes...
it was yesterday tat i truly understood the meaning of tithing...
as in...the benefits..i don't really noe..but i noe why i need to...
i seriously jus wan to keep some money away from the cursed currency floating around..
with tat intention in mind..i gave 2 bucks.(no matter wat the amount)
my intent was jus to keep it sanctified...for the Lord.
yep..from a person who was sceptical bout tithing after these few months of church going..
i was transformed yet again by understanding why i needed to tithe...
praise the Lord.