even if u give me a naked model.i'll flee.

sighs.hav been agitated lately cos of the devil.makin use of this person to irritate me..
the same person i talked about a few entries back..
how can u be calm and sober when u initiated all those.
exactly this's wat the msg said
"are u sure u don't wan to hav anymore !mac or airport stayover before u go NS? or u've taken the vow of celibacy?"
next msg "it's okie..i've been feelin very calm these days already"

YEA FUCKIN RIGHT.
when u're calm and sober u don't initiate this..
pple used to say that men think with their dicks..
i'm sorry i don't belong to tat cat anymore...
in the past i was this person who din hav any moral and spiritual directions.
now i'm different.
SEXUAL IMMORALITY.FLEE.
pastor preached about this before in church.
i'm not hard up for sexual intimacy.
i'm not the kind of "cover the face and **** the base" person.
u give me a naked model now i won't do anything.
yea.i jus feel tat it's much more satisfyin when there's intimacy with ur rightful partner.
whether it's emotional or physical..
yesh..
i'm jus very pissed with tat..have to pardon me for my vulgarities..
but i really hav to let it all out here to show tat my directions now are very clear..
i've learnt to hold myself up with dignity.
AND A GAL WHO HOLDS HERSELF IN RESPECT WLDN'T SEEK SUCH STUFF.

i read this article in menshealth a few months back.the article was titled "things u should do to earn urself respect"
one of the points was "always refuse a slut"
when i read tat..i jus realised my mistakes immediately..
yeps..but thank God.such lessons are useful to me.

how not to see the devil's evil workins in a person when tat person
1.feels sian cos someone has accepted Christ?
come on.it's a great joy for anyone to accept Christ.lives will be changed completely.
and u're feelin sian cos someone has decided to let grace overflow in her life?
2.tries to tempt me with u-noe-wat-kinda-stuff-i'm-talkin-about?

i'm not desperate for love.not desperate for sex
i'm not lonely i'm not afraid.
all i need is good frens who provide tat emotional connection.
tat's wat i'm askin for.
perhaps tat's why i feel like it's hard to get excited these days..
i'm lookin for tat emotional connection above everything else.

talk talk talk.

i'm really sorry for my vulgarities.
i'm not condemning her.i really jus feel tat this person needs Christ.
pray for her.

P.E.A.C.E O.U.T.