where'd u go?i miss u so

where'd u go? i miss u so..seems like it's been forever..tat u've been gone...
mwhahah this song rocks..
i don't noe..sad melancholy song..
but arghs..
bookin in is a whore as always..
did i jus say tat the syndrome has been acting up lately?

till saturday
peace.
=)

the morning after the rendevous

eeyer...yucks..hahahha...
i went to stay over at jiayi's hse for the night..
we walked around all the way...from suntec aft the movie to marina then back to suntec...
at citylink i suggested a milkshake at gelare and the deal was done..cookies and cream milkshake tat tasted so milky it sucked..
then ard 11 plus my mouth was itchy so we went to the kopitiam at bras basah road..shared a plate of char kuay teow and we ate our respective desserts..
friggin sinful food the whole day long..did i say tat i had cookie crunch at haagen daaz in the afternoon with my mum and sis?
tsk tsk...my six pack my six pack....

the bras basah kopitiam was jus opp SMU..which was exactly the place i was at a few weeks back..
i passed by coffee club and it was still open at 11!!!!!!
it was nuts larh..at that time it closed at 1030 but yest it opened till so late..
siggggggggghhs...and i was with jiayi..
ahhahahaha
oh yea..before i forgot..we even walked to esplanade..yes esplanade..jus walk and talk..
and guess wat..there was fireworks...
oh manx..watching fireworks with a group of frens is still okie..but with another guy?arghs...
hahaha i stood 5m away from him to appreciate the fireworks...
din really see much fireworks la..we were jus too amused with the idea of two guys watching fireworks...
arghs...if only if only if only if only if only if only....the right company was there.
*shrugs*
hahahahha..
but yea..yest i was jus very thankful for watever company i had la...
as in..marc told me about the movie..i was a lil sian of goin out...
but when he told me there were only jy and him...i jus immediately agreed to it...
and i felt so thankful for tat company even though it was with two other guys..
i jus realised tat we shldn't ask or demand or expect too much in life manx..when we don't get it we get sad disappointed...watever for?
be anxious about nothing
prayful for everything
thankful for anything

oh yea the thing i wanted to blog but was cut short yest was..
on sunday...i dialled a cab and a merc cab was assigned...
i was in the cab with sheena on the way to church...
but in my mind i rem a few weeks ago..someone told me tat to get a merc cab would be nice..

rendevous

rendevous at jiayi's house!!!!
hahahaha....
stupid gay shit...
ehs..i've this burning thing inside to blog..
arghs...my dad jus kup the phone on me..
fuck la i told my sis tat ii was goin to stay over at my fren's place...
aiyarh..watever shit larh..

sians........
don't feel like bloggin about the stuff anymore..

group dynamics part II and thai express.

my pet peeve's poor service.period.
i don't expect to be treated like a king..but i believe tat we should respect each other..whether it's either waitor to patron or patron to waiter...
if u've noticed.courtesy and politeness is so important in the way how both waiters and patrons should treat each other..
i saw tat sorely lacking today..maybe cos it's CNY and they are reluctant to work...so meng gam wan which from hokkien translated to eng means "reluctant"
i reached thai express esplanade with my mum and aunt.

me to a male waitor,"excuse me we made a reservation under the name Serene"

waitor goes into the restuarant to check..another female waitor came out.

f waitor,"excuse me may i help"

repeated myself,"we made a reservation under the name Serene"

f waitor looked at me ridiculously..like wearin a snow cap was so alienic to her..and replied,"which restaurant is it?"

i paused for a brief moment.probably shocked by the qns..i looked up,saw the sign "thai express" and answered.

f waitor,"i'm sorry we don't make any reservations during new year"
f waitor went in and a few minutes later a man dressed in black assumin he's the manager confirmed our reservation and ushered us in.

yea...if the f waitor first few words were sayin tat the restaurant doesn't make any reservations during cny..i could understand..
but the way she looked at me..was tat of ridicule..like how the friggin hell can we get the restaurant wrong...
maybe i'm sensitive to poor service...but in my whole life..i don't rem and don't think and don't expect any waitor to ask the customer if they got the restaurant wrong...
i don't noe manx...i was kinda offended by tat stupid qns....like my face spelled stupid to her...
thai express can be mixed up with which other restaurant?
ridiculous qns...
never mind..i stepped into the restaurant and i couldn't feel a whiff of cold air in it...
air con probably spoilt...
never mind...
everything went quite okie..till the end when we were finishing our food and my aunt asked for a cup of ice...
the same male waitor came back with a glass of ice and sorta banged the cup down..
this i din hear...it's my sisters who remarked about it..
even my aunt's face was shocked..which led me to ask wat happened...
tat was the last straw i think..i reached boiling point alr..and jus spoke loudly..
"wah the service here damn lousy"
i din shout but i made sure it was loud enuff...

when i was young..i would feel very pai seh whenever my dad made noise about the long period of waiting time before the food came...
to me i can wait for the food....even if the food takes friggin long to come..i would jus walk to the waitor and speak nicely..reminding him of my order..
i wouldn't..unlike my dad..ask in a demanding manner for my food..
patience is not a problem to me..but poor service is..
i'm not loaded with money..i'm only there to enjoy the food..and this kinda basic courtesy in serving for the waitors..and for us showing our appreciation to them...is kinda universal isn't it..
i don't noe..i think i've reached a stage whereby i won't be afraid to speak up..when there's seriously a problem to be addressed..
unlike in the past..i got stupidly scolded for cycling on the pavement..got stupidly scolded by this fuckin female bitch in a car...
she was exiting from her condo..and din really notice it..almost ran into the path of the car...
she stopped came out and gave me a lecture on how it's against the law to cycle on the pavement..
at tat time i din wan to create a scene so i jus quietly said my apologies and went on...
she even stopped her car nearby to ensure tat we don't continue to cycle on the road..
i thought back on it..when i went back tat day i kept thinkin about my stupidity..my timidness...
so much so tat this time round if another fucker of an ang moh comes and lecture me..
i'll jus ask him to go back to where he came from..of course i'll skip the vulgarities..i don't need them to emphasize my point and i think ang mohs should be "civilised" enuff to understand tat.
fuckin shit..they come here with the strongest currency in the world and buy the nicest houses tat u can find in singapore and they are still so fucked up demanding...

in case if anyone doesn't noe...i flashed a third finger at a bus driver before..who so happily rushed off from a stop even though i was running...i was running towards the bus with my hands out flagging...
yep....do ask if u wan to noe more...
hahhaas
tat was much much more recent..last year...i've learnt my lesson alr...
to not suffer in silence when u noe tat u aren't totally in the wrong..

arghs i've to rush off alr..
to be continued..

Fort Minor- Red to Black

I had a friend named Victor
The two of us used to hang every single day
And it seemed like overnight
That his whole life just changed
I know when his mom and dad broke up
It didn't make sense
But i know that his dad was a drunk
And he gambled away the rent
Pretty soon Vic was seeing red
Pissed off and instead
Hed drink every night until he passed out
And then hed do it all again
The whole time spelling on the outside
To cover the pain
But on the inside
All he was trying to do was get away
Trying to get away
Let the pain of yesterday
Go slipping through the cracks
Yo, Funny how things change color
Than fade to another shade
When you had it made it was all good
But now look just another day
It was so fresh
It was so clean
Never saw it gone
One, two, three
Lights out, which way to turn
Can't get a grip
All alone in a big white house
Every day gets worse
And you just curse until your head bursts
And it hurts so bad she left
You think to yourself
I shoulda thought of that one first
No family, no kids
Cant accept what you did
Now you wanna run away
But you can't
Cause the past comes back again
Slippin through the cracks
Have a little shack
Go to bed half dead
What about rent
Why does every cent gotta be a bet
Whens it gonna end
Oh my god we dont got a penny left
My moms gotta find a way
To get a job, out of debt, out of dodge
Out of breath, out of this big problem
My pops wanna get away from the pain
In a better place in his brain
But the medication he takes
Makes him wasted
So sick if hes gonna faint
The good lord would come take himI
m shaking now wake up
You son of a bitch!He's trying to get away
Let the pain of yesterday
Go slipping through the cracks
Hiding himself away
Watching all the memories fade away
From red to black
He's trying to get away
Let the pain of yesterday
Go slipping through the cracks
Hiding himself away
Watching all the memories fade away
From red to black
Slipping through the cracks
Slipping through the cracks
Slipping through the cracks

mwahahha so bored tat i'm posting lyrics on my blog..
was jus listening to this song..not very applicable but it's jus the song while i'm blogging..
yepp...
i jus realised blasting music rocks...
when it's so quiet at home...
hip hop's so in my blood..if only i was a nigga...tat'll be nice..
but never mind..chi rapsters like Jin give me some hope..
hahahha

i jus had an idea..something to do..
but i wonder if those kinda shops will be opened in these few days before i go back in..
hmms..i really hope so manx..

so weird..i don't have anything to say to sheena
today i was jus at a loss for words...
hahaha one of my quiet days.....
or maybe i really have nothing to talk to her anymore

which i think it's something good...i don't noe..a closure...
so tat i can be fair to pple ard me...
=)
shucks...
my mind's preoccupied
but at the same time i don't feel any pressure inside...
how to describe tat kinda inner peace?????
=)))
ask God.look at Christ.

i jus got stories today..hahahhaa...
new updates about the study group..
tsk tsk.....
i really don't noe how to put it in words...
but i would really jus like to pray for my Christian brother...
for the things tat are spinnin around us now..
keep afloat...
mwhahhaa i jus rem...my coy fitness specialist said something tat sounded hilarious...
"the more u struggle inside the trapped wire..the more u'll get entangled in them..jus like women"
hey hey hey!!! i'm not sounding sexist here...
i think this line can also be applied to men eh..
the more u struggle inside the trapped wire..the more u'll get entangled in them..jus like men..hahaha
i still hav many thoughts inside..
but i think i would rather talk...
no point typin in my blog....
talk talk talk.....

okies..i'm experiencing blogger's block now...

it's been long since i said "this sucks"

oh manx..wat am i doin in front of the comp in the morning at 928am?
hahahha i don't hav any cny this year...sighs..no angbao..no visiting(not like i do visiting every year)
now tat my grandma has passed away..i don't even see any more visits for the subsequent years to come...don't think my paternal relatives will ever come again...grandma not here..wat's there to visit?
newaes i always thought tat visiting my grandmather for my relatives was jus a matter of formality...
every year cny was the same to me..relatives coming to my house...light chatter..angbaos..mahjong..and go home....
this year on cny..the house's so quiet..darn....
i think army jus makes u realise the things u've taken for granted..
such as cny..every year cny was a boring affair...till this year i'm actually yearning for the festive mood or smth..
but yea..heck with the traditions eh..i'm more interested in being in the Christmas festive mood anyday..
early morning..asked my dad if my maid could wash my new shirt before i wear it soon..
he said can't wash anything today...
i was like wtf..i don't even noe there's such a practise...

anyways..on a brighter note....
i walked from tanjong katong rd to my house yest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwhahaha yet another great walkin journey acheived...
after the comfortable chilling session..i walked out to the streets and buses were nowhere to be seen..and i knew i won't make it in time for the last train at 115am..
and i've alr decided to walk back home alr...
i don't noe..i'm a night person...while marc likes to think alot in the day..at night it's when i think..yep..walkin along the streets at night is something i enjoy doin...
but of course i don't do that for no rhyme nor reason...
fortunately my journey was "cut short" by the phone call i had throughout the whole walk.=))))
there's nothing to feel bad about!!!!

oh wells...
we shldn't be desperate for affection should we?
've seen frens ard me...
seekin affection from so and so....
dependent on it...
sighs..
while this fren on mine is alr losin faith in his relationship even when 1 month hasn't passed..
okiessss...1 month's considered quite long for a relationship to some pple alr...
but yea..the decision to jump into one durin this period was alr a risky one...
and u definitely need alot of maturity in handling this...

wat bout me??????
i'm so glad i'm jus keepin it like this...
nothing has to happen wat...there's no pressure..no worries..no rush...
*SmmiLes*

it's so amazing how U....

i'm back...i've so many random friggin thoughts in my brain to let out..
arghs..
ahhahaha...msgin's so lifeless....
talkin's not as nice to person to person talkin.....
jeez..personal preference la..
i'm back....to smell the mainland's fresh air..air tat doesn't clog my nostrils at the end of the day..
mwhahaha....
where should i start?????
okies..let's talk about my 4 days survival course in camp...
mwhahhahaa..
the 4 days wasn't easy.i went mad and started keepin a diary during tat four days..those days when i had loads of admin time...
mwhahhahah....
im goin to go through a week of survival course soon......
and i noe i'll -survive-
i'll...hopefully....no i'll....
mwhahahhaa....
i'm high now..i dont noe manx..i got so high aft i ate omelette and kang kong at 10pm last night...
okies..i shld start with food..
since i came out i ate mcspicy....and a sundae..tat night at 2am i was cravin for roti prata..but the darn shop was closing..i walked to macs and ordered a beef fantastic
next day at suntec i ate mcchicken sundae..and a coffee fraup at cafe cartel....
phew....yest i came out..i ate sirloin steak and cookie summit at swensens...and yea..omelette and kang kong at night..
this monring aft my 30min run i ate 2 full eggs..2 bowls of cornflex..and a cornetto ice cream...
1 1/2 hours later i ate half bowl of cornflex...and two small sucky tasting eclairs...
oh ya talkin about eclairs..i forgot to buy jus now..arghs...
yea..and aft was kfc without the skin..and a milkshake at gelare...
phew...all in one breath..
ahhahahaha....
don't be envious manx..
ahhahaha..
though i'm feelin guilty..tat since i train hard i should eat right to see better results..
but please....when i'm out..fast food tastes like heaven..though i don't noe wat heaven tastes smells and looks like..
hahahha..
i realised tat in the past..my controlled diet was really categorized into "no life" manx..
i would rebuke that..defending my choice..but now...the "normal civvy food life" is really those junk...
give me a sundae tmr please
=))))
i'm bored bored bored at home...
i might jus do night trainin tonite..
hahahaha...
boring shiites..
oh yea..
my run today...i wanted to run the normal route to a track near my house from my grandma's place..but somehow something in me jus told me to run the route to my pri sch at senett estate...
and so i went with my easy run pace...in the sun which i yearn for...something which i'll touch about soon...yea...
i went past this guy who had loads of facial hair..look like a primitive ape..and he was speakin gibberish..repeating it again and again...
i was freaked out manx...as in not in the scared sense but i knew straight away he lost his mind...but newaes he reminded me of the infected pple in the movie 28 days..where this virus will pass from monkeys to humans..and it's somehwat like the mad cow disease...
the infected humans will hav to be chained up cos they will turn uber violent...
yea..tat guy look like he came out straight from the movie screen...
but yea...i'm not tryin to mock at him..
it's sad la...
yepps...towards my pri sch(cedar pri which's jus next to cedar gals sec)
wahs i tell u nostalgia hit me like crazy...pri sch stuff...sec sch stuff...the bus stop where she passed me the savage garden vcd....
nuts manx..i still rem runnin from the old victoria sch to cedar..hahahah a few guys do tat...
downhill....
i don't noe manx...they say runnin is euphoric..kaes..i noe i'm goin to spark off a furious debate here...but runnin slow jus makes u think...
i passed my pri sch..it was under renovation..the old buildings were gone..totally..new ones have replaced it...
it's been 123456 years since i graduated from pri 6...phoah...
and it jus dawned on me...this article which i read in camp..sunday times...
"it's good tat old places stay the same..so tat when u go and revisit them..u'll be amazed at the many ways tat u urself hav changed"
something like tat la i para phrased it..
yepps..
my old pri sch building changed while i grew up..
cedar gals din while i grew up...
apt to describe the many events tat happened in jc too...
incoherent thoughts...
i almost got angry..but inside me i was tellin myself to keep calm..don't argue!!
hahahha...yept to digress a lil..i jus had a online convo with sheena..
i wasn'y lying i was speakin the truth..she suspected otherwise...
nahs jus a small matter tat shldn't be bothered with..
would i ever wan to friggin lie through my teeth again?
*attempts to blow air all over me*
chillllll....
let's talk about running first...
kaes..tat's basically all la..but the run was the nicest i've run since don't noe when..
in fact i wanted to go back vj today to run....
i miss the beach.....darn..i totally miss the 6k runs...the sand and the smell of the sea..
i miss school la...the lectures which i religiously skipped...the tutorials which i totally stoned in..
i'm missing them now..
the company..the study period...
19 year old alr...can't believe tat..
ahhahaha..
19 19 19....

was in town today.something so amazing happened..
i was walkin in my dreamy state..okie my normal state i shld call it..
i walk without my specs..
o pple far away i won't really go and notice them..
the closest i can and will see is when some pretty gal walk past and i jus give a glance..
mwahhahaha..spouting rubbish..
newaes..i was walkin in front of my frens...with my frens behind me..
amazingly amzingly amazingly
i din notice ben and sheena walkin past me..while my frens behind me did...
i'm still shocked when i think of this..four guys behind me noticing..while i was walkin in front and din see anything..i'm really a blind bat.
ahhahaha
yep....
imagine how i would feel if i see both of them tog?
no hard feelins inside..but i'm sure something inside me will tingle if i see both of them manx..
ahhahaha
but i din....
but i din...
but i din....
aft the incident..i was super happy...uber amazed at His love....
amazed at how such things are shielded away from me...
thank God.
=))
but come to think of it..
if i see both of them being happy tog..i'll be happy.
=)))))
tat's life.

Frankie J-How do I deal?

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I don't I'll probably regret it
How do I cope
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your careerI gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you
It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebdoy else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how to I live...how do I deal without you

random thoughts~

random thoughts..
hahaha.when it gets busier..and when i get more tired at night..don't think i'll hav so much time to stone anymore....

anyways...why am i back at my comp typin another entry?
i don't noe..
with all the uncertainties..As results..studies..army...
i think tat it's a very nice thing to see the person u like to grow up through the different seasons.
aft As...work...study...job...
tat's the life for a gal...
aft As..army study work job..
*ruffles my bald head*
i like the feelin of my head..but tat's another matter...
newaes...
i reallie don't mind if it's a one-sided thing..
cos when u go in there with no expectations.it reallie makes ur heart beat much more easier..
=)

and then!there's another matter...
sheena...if if if if if (i've to repeat it 5x to show tat i really don't wan this to happen) their rs jus so happens not to work out...
wat will i do?
i can tell u..the feelins for an old flame can jus come back in a flash.
i reallie don't noe why she chose him...
but i reallie reallie wan to move on with my life alr...
and it's definitely not fair to feel for someone else when inside u aren't ready.
right now.i jus wan to put out those flames.
in fact i din even bring any pictures in my wallet to camp.
yes i'm afraid of losin them.
but i also don't wan to take them out and reminisce.

and my mind's pretty occupied alr...

all in a day's break

all in a day's break.
it's goin to be 1 week plus of absence for me....
with the cold winds n the harsh rains..i can't stop thinkin of tat -fri-

let go and let God.
let me grow up first.
As..overseas...stable jobs...
i shall jus live by the day.
and maybe patiently pray and receive His grace.
-wait-

it's time to be a man.

arghs...
hahaha..i don't noe if everyone goes through the same feeling..
apprehension..
but whatever it is..i'm goin in there trusting the Lord wholeheartedly...

something amazing happened yest night at 1am..
i was kinda thinkin about some stuff..wondering what i should do..wonderin wat will happen...
and then nl and tym went all the way to my doorstep to place a card tat says
"i stood there a long while.wondered if i should swim where i have never swam before.Then God whispered:"Trust Me"
"it's always easy to trust wat u can see.to trust God not knowing where He may lead- tat's faith, spelled courage.
You may not always see God's hands, but u can always trust God's heart"
yea the last two lines did it for me.
the right card the right message at the right time...wonderful isn't it...
then i was reachin up for a piece of paper from the printer to think of rhymes..
and suddenly the book which i bought a few days back dropped down.
titled "God's creative power"
looks like the card n the small book are goin in with me.=)

all i need is to trust eh...
"i like the idea of the flow, cos i don't really like to knead my own dough"
yepps...
it's a significant line actually..cos i really don't wan to do things through my own self effort..which's small minimal and insignificant..
leaving it to Him and trusting Him is much easier.=)

take a chill pill.take a back seat.
and be a man.

praise the Lord.

signs of trouble.

i don't noe..
i saw signs of trouble jus now...
here and there..
from macs to the fountain itself..
hmms..
maybe i'm jus too observant..hahah..
i jus hope they two can stick it through eh..be mature about it...
=)

okies..where do i start..
i went home and felt super shagged..i really don't noe why...
alrights..thank God for the perfect weather...a few dark clouds rollin by..the soothing breeze and the right seats at the right place...
=)))
i don't noe...
now it's ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
mwhahaha..the question marks never end...

but i shall jus remain as it is..
leave it to God...

pastor was jus talkin about his bad day yest....
and pomp! i jus hate it lar..
i don't noe why i'm so affected...
it's like the devil's tryin to come in...
but yea...
i'm righteous...
first thing..the first friggin thing i reached suntec..to find tym n nl at mac..i bumped into them.err her i mean..
yea...
then u noe some condemnation jus came back...

but yea..screw it..
i'm goin to do my quiet time tonight...yepp....

newaes..i jus realised i can't get over that new york black tee i saw at pac plaza...
i'm still thinkin about it actually..maybe i'll get it real soon lar..if it's still there..
sighs..indecisiveness...
79 bucks!!!!
hahahas.

incoherent thoughts damnit..
went to orientation and saw the year1s enjoyin themselves..
i was jus like that two years ago..
two years hav passed
i've grown in so many ways tat's impossible to comprehend..
it's not jus about the lectures the tutorials the trainings..
it's about the relations i had with different pple..
arghs..
did i say tat i hate nostalgic moments?
i jus wan to stay in the present...
right now right here...
yea..there's always a season for everything...
jus get it over to the back of my head...

pre enlisting depression..
renfu was already showing signs of it in the mrt..

i reallie had to put on tat music in my ears at suntec...to really snub out everything...

i shld hav been thicker in my skin and jus did tat..
mwhahahha...
it will reallie round off a nice sucky nice day...
hahaha.
nice cos of the afternoon..sucky cos of the evening..nice cos of wat could hav been at night.=)
it's okie...
my foot's too precious for me to shoot it myself.
=)

Ms question mark?

50 cent

[50 Cent]Go, go, go, goGo, go,
go shawty
It's your birthday
We gon' party like it's yo birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's your birthday
And you know we don't give a fuckIt's not your birthday!
[Chorus] (2x)You can find me in the club,
bottle full of bub
Look mami I got the X if you into taking drugs
I'm into having sex, I ain't into making love
So come give me a hug if you into to getting rubbed
[Verse]When I pull out up front, you see the Benz on dubs
When I roll 20 deep, it's 20 knives in the club
Niggas heard I fuck with Dre, now they wanna show me love
When you sell like Eminem, and the hoes they wanna fuck
But homie ain't nothing change hold down,
G's upI see Xzibit in the Cutt that nigga roll that weed up
If you watch how I move you'll mistake me for a playa or pimp
Been hit wit a few shells but I dont walk wit a limp
In the hood then the ladies saying "50 you hot"
They like me, I want them to love me like they love 'Pac
But holla in New York them niggas'll tell ya im loco
And the plan is to put the rap game in a choke hold
I'm feelin' focused man, my money on my mind
I got a mill out the deal and I'm still on the grind
Now shawty said she feeling my style, she feeling my flow
Her girlfriend wanna get bi and they ready to go
[Chorus] (2x)[Bridge]My flow, my show brought me the doe
That bought me all my fancy things
My crib, my cars, my pools, my jewels
Look nigga I got K-Mart and I ain't change
[Verse]And you should love it, way more then you hate it
Nigga you mad? I thought that you'd be happy I made it
I'm that cat by the bar toasting to the good life
You that faggot ass nigga trying to pull me back right?
When my junk get to pumpin in the club it's on
I wink my eye at ya bitch, if she smiles she gone
If the roof on fire, let the motherfucker burn
If you talking bout money homie, I ain't concerned
I'm a tell you what Banks told me cause go 'head switch the style up
If the niggas hate then let 'em hate
Watch the money pile up
Or we go upside there wit a bottle of bubYou know where we fucking be
[Chorus] (2x)[Talking](laughing) Don't try to act like you ain't know where we been either nigga
In the club all the time nigga,
its about to pop off niggaG-Unit

yucks..50 cent songs are always like that..
but the beat jus rocks..
mwhahaha..
shucks..i think i'm reverting back to the nigga music tat i so like.

Father God's love for us

hmms..yest there was this get together for those pre Ns enlistees...
and lionel and jiahao shared about their NS experiences...
isn't it perfect love from God tat allows
1.Lionel to get company best trainee even when he didn't even hav to do anything
to do a personal best time in the obstacle course even when he jus recovered from an injury?
2.Jiahao to always get the best timings to book out..to always get the best things in his hellish NDU adventure?
3.Gerry to jus study.have peace inside by trusting the Lord and get a 20% jump in her grades to a higher class of honours?

at first when i hear it.i hav this doubt.are these stories for real?
Gerry's story is friggin real..and i hav no reason to doubt lionel's and jh's too...
u might say hey it's their own effort..they're smart fit or jus lucky...
but it's them who personally say tat they jus trust wholeheartedly in the Lord and jus let Him take over their difficulties..and true enough...the boundary lines are set in place for them..
isn't this His perfect love?

lionel and jh laid hands on the enlistees yest...
at first i was apprehensive jus like the first time...
but as they jus spoke to us by placin their hands..i jus felt something strong stirrin inside..
i thought it's dumb to let tears fall durin this kinda thing.
but hey i did feel something and tears did fall durin the annointing...
i could almost see this ethereal image inside my mind..
and the amazing thing is tat i didn't even tell myself to conjure up tat image...

newaes..i din really feel anything when i saw sheena in church yest...
or rather something inside me jus naturally told me not to feel anything.
i don't noe wat to think of it.
but i jus noe it's useless for me to hold on to tat thought when she's happy with another guy.
yepp.

i won't be a quick rebound kinda person. i don't want to be one.
i'll jus take my time and let God do his work.
=)

the first time i kissed a guy.is on the first day of 2006.a sign of things to come?lol

oh manx..i jus realised how significant my title sound..
shucks..dingwen..the first guy i gave my kiss away to...
full smack on the lips for don't noe how many seconds..jeez...
all in the name of fun for a game of truth or dare..
initially i thought it will be borin in tat jazz bar...
u noe i think my fear is tat everyone will be bored..tat's my greatest fear..
of stoning in a group...sucky feeling..
but thank God..once the countdown was over..we got high..started playin the game and it started rollin on and on...
kissing..dancing..disturbin others...awful details in the stuff we reveal..
mwhhahahah...
i was high la..maybe it was a lil on the drinks..
at midnight..while everyone was playin with the poopers..
i jus muttered a prayer...givin thanks for the company i had on NYE and new year's day..
i could easily been sittin at home watchin the countdown..living life boringly..
but God jus placed these frens in front of me..to enjoy each other's company....
thank God.

i wanted to drink more..but decided to save for this wed's stuff..mwhahaha....
anyways..i'm really not into beer at the nearby 7eleven...
yupp..nice dinner..fun time..yea a reallie reallie fun time at the jazz bar..
i realise jazz's fine with me..i can appreciate...i can dance..
stupid tym doesn't wan to...
jus boogie la..ahahahhaa...i saw two ladies dancin away...so fun....

hmms..i actually hav quite alot of stuff to blog..
but i can't multi task..
mwhahhaha..
so i think i shld jus comeback another time.
=)