it's been long since i said "this sucks"

oh manx..wat am i doin in front of the comp in the morning at 928am?
hahahha i don't hav any cny this year...sighs..no angbao..no visiting(not like i do visiting every year)
now tat my grandma has passed away..i don't even see any more visits for the subsequent years to come...don't think my paternal relatives will ever come again...grandma not here..wat's there to visit?
newaes i always thought tat visiting my grandmather for my relatives was jus a matter of formality...
every year cny was the same to me..relatives coming to my house...light chatter..angbaos..mahjong..and go home....
this year on cny..the house's so quiet..darn....
i think army jus makes u realise the things u've taken for granted..
such as cny..every year cny was a boring affair...till this year i'm actually yearning for the festive mood or smth..
but yea..heck with the traditions eh..i'm more interested in being in the Christmas festive mood anyday..
early morning..asked my dad if my maid could wash my new shirt before i wear it soon..
he said can't wash anything today...
i was like wtf..i don't even noe there's such a practise...

anyways..on a brighter note....
i walked from tanjong katong rd to my house yest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwhahaha yet another great walkin journey acheived...
after the comfortable chilling session..i walked out to the streets and buses were nowhere to be seen..and i knew i won't make it in time for the last train at 115am..
and i've alr decided to walk back home alr...
i don't noe..i'm a night person...while marc likes to think alot in the day..at night it's when i think..yep..walkin along the streets at night is something i enjoy doin...
but of course i don't do that for no rhyme nor reason...
fortunately my journey was "cut short" by the phone call i had throughout the whole walk.=))))
there's nothing to feel bad about!!!!

oh wells...
we shldn't be desperate for affection should we?
've seen frens ard me...
seekin affection from so and so....
dependent on it...
sighs..
while this fren on mine is alr losin faith in his relationship even when 1 month hasn't passed..
okiessss...1 month's considered quite long for a relationship to some pple alr...
but yea..the decision to jump into one durin this period was alr a risky one...
and u definitely need alot of maturity in handling this...

wat bout me??????
i'm so glad i'm jus keepin it like this...
nothing has to happen wat...there's no pressure..no worries..no rush...
*SmmiLes*