u see..

there's no right or left in clubbing..
marc had an entire post about this matter..and i shall follow suit..
it's all about individual preference...
some call me crazy when i say i go running when i'm stressed...
one man's food is another's poison..yea literally if u consider how running hard can make u go flat.
loud music may not go well with the ears of some...
maybe my big ears have a big surface area..being able to spread out the decibels before the sound reaches my ear..
or maybe i think i'm getting deaf with the passin of every day..
smoke is bad for the lungs..let alone second hand smoke.
it's bad for my lungs..and i noe that i should preserve my precious lungs...
there's a reason why u din see me in clubs every week when i booked out durin bmt..
different people have different tastes in music..
some like it rock.some like it holy..some like it indie..some like it soft.some like it nigga..
the music in clubs might not appeal to some..
by all means there's always chilling at a pub listening to jazz..
and i don't drink myself crazy.i din even touch alcohol at DXO..and don't plan to do in the future.maybe a barcadi or two..but i realise the difference between a wasted and a non-wasted is duhs.the drinking.even a cup of barcadi can make a world of a difference the next day.
clubbing doesn't make u a bad guy.neither will a non clubbing person make him a good guy.
u see where i'm driving at?

u see....

u see..
different people have different train of thoughts..most of our principles are formed by our experiences..
different people have different expectations of their future partners...
do pardon me if i seem to have this fortress of defense around me..
this fortress..u'll noe once u u noe me enough...
do pardon me as it is due to some people who have made me wary..or rather a guarded person..
jus like how my actions in the past might make some guarded and wary too..
yea but it's the past..i'm a new creation and it's finished at the cross.Amen.

u see....

u see..
different people have different train of thoughts..most of our principles are formed by our experiences..
different people have different expectations of their future partners...
do pardon me if i seem to have this fortress of defense around me..
this fortress..u'll noe once u u noe me enough...
do pardon me as it is due to some people who have made me wary..or rather a guarded person..
jus like how my actions in the past might make some guarded and wary too..
yea but it's the past..i'm a new creation and it's finished at the cross.Amen.

actually....

actually..i still have alot of thoughts to ramble about..am too lazy to do so..

oh my wat a wish.

oh yea was at suntec tog..havin lunch with my mum and sis..and both of them decided to walk round the fountain of wealth..
apparently..the instructions were to walk round the fountain thrice..with ur hands placed in the water..and make a silent wish..
and so both my mum and sis went round..i did tat too..but my hands weren't in the water..and i din make a wish..
but there's this small boy jus behind me...goin round the fountain too...
he went round the fountain..with both hands in the water..and he remarked loudly,"i want my gameboy my PS2" and watnot..the rest i can't rem..
but it made me laugh like crazy there and then...
like harlo..make a silent wish!!!
i jus kept on laughin at his exuberant nature and the fact tat it's supposed to be a silent wish.
then i told my sis tat it's almost certain tat he won't get his gameboy and ps2 cos of wat he has done..
mwhahahha...
darn funny observing such stuff...

today i was waiting for my mum and sis..and i was observing these two lil boys playing a game..
one was supposed to throw the pikachu toy and whoever who runs and gets the toy first wins..
and this boy A threw the toy..and before boy B knew it..boy A already took a few steps forward in the direction tat he's goin to throw in...
and hence boy A always won the game..
hahaha
i don't noe why i'm reporting this..
but i'm jus observing the simple stuff tat kids do or play...

tat day while at the esplanade with my classmates..
i was jus sitting down and stoning..relishing in the simpleness and goodness of the view at the esplanade..the waters and the boats..
simple stuff tat i won't get to see tat often in the comin months..

arghhhhhhhhhhhhs

arghhhs..
first time i'm grumbling..
i'm goin back to camp...
siaaaaaaaaaaaannns..
though today when i looked back on how i spent my 10days..i'm quite satisfied with wat i did...
aft POP..club..swim..run..swim..club...open houses..church..family dinners..open houses again..church..shoppin..swim..run..lunch with friend..dinner with friend.. night cycling..squash..gym..bballed..sleep..net..rest..DXO..tennis..family dinner..lunch with mum and sis..shopping..rest...
it was a block leave filled with activities..satifyin ones i should say..none too boring..
took the time to catch up with one or two of my friends...
had my fair share of fun up mt faber...had my fair share of groovin in clubs...
a small lil frenship..if u can even call tat..made durin this leave...

drift away...
friends come and go..but true frens leave footprints in ur heart
lol..
this line was pasted in my bmtc toilet...
hmms..so who are those who have left footprints in my heart?

incoherent thoughts now..
prob cos i'm goin back to camp..
everytime i report back to camp..i always have a distraction..
tat time before bmt..i had one..
now before OCS..i've another one...
arghs..
suck suck suck

and i miss groovin...
shit..tat addiction..

weirdo dreams..i've got them figured out.

slept..woke up..and slept again..
that's when the weird dreams start comin up...picture bubbles comin out of my head when i'm snoozing...
i dreamt i took ippt back at coy line..
don't noe why.i suddenly din follow my section..and i was alone at the standing broad jump or shuttle run station...in which i can't recall...
then suddenly serg delwin came and gathered everyone and read out this 6digit number..
yea...
it's like reading out the toto numbers..
unfortunately..much to my mum or aunt or dad or whoever who buys lottery's dismay..i cldn't rem the number...
interpretation : i prob dream about the 6 digit number cos i jus made my atm card the other day..the bank teller was askin me to think of a 6digit pin..and there i have it...
i thought quite hard about it..something which i can easily rem..
and i realise..it's a significant number...
tat translates into my dream..

then i dreamt something even funnier..
i dreamt tat i was reading sheena's blog(she doesn't have one btw)
reading bout wat's happening in her life and all..
and in her entry..she said tat things between ben and her aren't going well...





and then i woke up.
at first when i woke up..i jus felt liek goin back to sleep..unoe the more u sleep the more tired u get kinda feeling...
but it was alr noon and i jus shaked myself out of bed..
plonked on the sofa and recalled wat's so significant bout my sleep..
i then recalled my dreams..
and tried to figure them out..
i felt guilty about dreaming the sheena blog thingy.
yea..at the same time..i still haven't got this figured out yet..
cos i noe for myself..i'm definitely not wishing bad things for them or smth..
yea..tat's why i'm puzzled..



at the end of it..
i'm so glad it's jus a dream..probably dreams occur when u're super tired..weirdo dreams occur when u're even more tired..
yeps..i belong to the latter...
dreams aren't real anyway..are they?

somthing jus lit up.

hmms...
i jus woke up after a loong sleep...and it somehow seems to zap more energy out of me..i woke up feelin lethargic..like every ounce of energy is zapped out of my by tat sleep..
sighs..
but nonetheless..it was because of night cycling tat i actually had to sleep tat long..
night cycling among all males..good jolly fun like i said.and indeed we had tat...
faber is torturous on your thighs and mental will....
stupid marc underestimated the height of faber....
and i was literally steppin on the pedal and murmuring to myself.."left right left right left right"
funny isn't it..sounded like the gals on the night cycling trip the other time..now i understand it..mwhahha
left right left right...i told myself.."this's jus like running..one step in front of another..keep going.."
yea...i took runnin to apply to a cycling situation..
looks like everyone was alr shagged before the cycling trip..
marc with his blading.jiayi with his kayaking..me with my running..

wait..goin up faber's the hard part..the painful part..made me respect tour de france cyclists even more...and yepps..no guess tat lance armstrong's my "idol"..
i always wondered how he did it..always in awe of wat he did..
to come back after cancer to rule the cycling arena once again...
*right hand thumping my left chest*

but goin down mount faber was the most fun part i ever had since in a long time....
i don't noe which's better...accelerating down faber or having sex(mwhahah i'm still clean.wat're u lookin at?)
i was watching my brakes manx..and i almost lost control at a sharp turn..tsk tsk..
i wanted to go up again with zhongyao..jus to come down the exhilarating winding roads again..but there was a time constraint..
oh yea..maybe this can be compared to a roller coaster ride tat i so wanna seek overseas...
hmms..roller coaster ride in singapore..much better than the expensive downtown east rides and watnot...
jus yank ur bike up faber and come down...
jus rem to check whether u're insured before speedin down...
;)

good old male fun at the top of faber..eating peanuts..crunching on chips and downing HtwoO..
talkin about army stuff..army experiences...
i don't noe why everytime there's a night cycling trip..i always feel this slight sense of apprehension...
the other time..after the trip with the study group...which was after prelims but before As...
i was tellling myself that the fun durin the trip's comin to an end and it will be back to books books and more books for the As...
yest.i was tellin myself tat the fun durin the trip's comin to and end and it will be back to camp..and i don't even noe when's the next time we are goin to meet up again and do this kinda crazy shit...
but it's alright..As came and went...and i'm certain we guys will meet up again jus for the bikes..

went back to sch..slept a lil..woke up and did pullups..and went back to sleep..squashed after tat..gymed a lil after tat...
did i mention tat me and zhongyao were shooting hoops in the early morning?at ard 4-5am..
i kinda lost my motivation to play basketball..don't noe why..
but when i started dribbling the ball...when the ball leaves and returns to my hand after each bounce...somehow the basketball engine jus started to kick up in me...
could feel it runnin through my veins...
and the fun returned...
i even tried to relive tat three pointer i had against tjc in my first match..
the nail biting three...
the inspiring three in which kin put it...
wat's this called? tryin to recapture ur glorious moments again?

i don't noe when i'm return to the competitive side of bball again..
i'm craving for it..but i noe this's not the season..
as usual..live a day on its own..

in my heart..i'm prayin tat she'll receive the Gospel soon.=)

Superman

[Dina Rea:]Mmmhh
[Eminem:]You high baby?
[Dina Rea:]Yeahh...
[Eminem:]Yeah?
[Dina Rea:]hahaha..Talk to me...
[Eminem:]You want me to tell you somethin?
[Dina Rea:]Uh huh...
[Eminem:]I know what you wanna hear...'Cuz I know you want me baby I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]I think I love you too...
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Let's let our love unfurl.
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,
I wanna save you girl,
come be in Shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]Bitch you make me hurl...
[Eminem:]They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it bitch, babysit? you make me sick,
Superman aint savin shit,
girl you can jump on shady's dick,
Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a mo'fuckin slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her face,I'm a different man, kiss my ass, kiss my lips, bitch why ask?
Kiss my dick, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my ass,
Don't put out? i'll put you out,
Won't get out? i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin shit,
Wouldn't piss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice? buy you ice,
Bitch if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife?
What you Mariah? fly through twice,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come, they go,
Saturday through sunday monday,Monday through sunday yo,
Maybe i'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Chorus:]'Cuz I can't be your superman,Can't be your superman,Can't be your superman,Can't be your superman,I can't be your superman,Can't be your superman,Can't be your superman, Your superman, your superman...
[Eminem:]Don't get me wrong,
I love these hoes,
It's no secret,
Everybody knows,
Can't we fuck?
Bitch so what?
That's about as far as your buddy goes,
We'll be friends,I'll call you again,I'll chase you around every bar you attend,
Never know what kind of car i'll be in,
[Woman Screaming]We'll see how much you'll be partying then,
You don't want that,
Neither do I,
I don't wanna flip when I see you with guys,
Too much pride,Between you and I,
Not a jealous man, but females lie,
But I guess that's just what sluts do,
How could it ever be just us two?
Never loved you enough to trust you,
We just met and I just fucked you,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday monday,Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,'
Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]
[Eminem:]I know you want me baby,I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]I think I love you too,I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]Oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]Bitch you make me hurl.
[Eminem:]First thing you said...
[Eminem As Women:]I'm not phazed,
I hang around big stars all day,
I don't see what the big deal is anyway,
You're just plain ol' Marshall to me... [Eminem:]Ooh yeah girl run that game...
[Eminem As Women:]Haily Jade...
I love that name,
Love that tattoo...what's that say?'rot in pieces' aww that's great...
[Eminem:]First off you don't know Marshall,
Add also, don't grow partial,
That's ammo for my arsenal,
I'll snap you off that bar stool,
There goes another lawsuit,
Leave handprints all accross you,
Good lordy-wody you must be blown off that water bottle,
You want what you can't have,
Ooh girl that's too damn bad,
Don't touch what you can't grab,
End up with two back hands,
Put Anthrax on a Tampax and slap you till you can't stand,
Girl you just blew your chance,
Don't mean to ruin your plans,
But I do know one thing though,
Bitches they come they go,
Saturday through Sunday Monday,Monday through Sunday yo,
Maybe I'll love you one day,
Maybe we'll someday grow,
'Till then just sit your drunk ass on that fuckin runway hoe...
[Eminem & Dina Rae Over Chorus 2x]
[Eminem:]I know you want me baby,I think I want you too...
[Dina Rea:]I think I love you baby...
[Eminem:]I think I love you too,
I'm here to save you girl,
Come be in Shady's world,
I wanna grow together,
Lets let our love unfurl,
You know you want me baby,
You know I want you too,
They call me Superman,
I'm here to rescue you,I wanna save you girl,
Come be in shady's world...
[Dina Rea:]Oh boy you drive me crazy...
[Eminem:]Bitch you make me hurl.

tuuuuuuuuuuuueees is long and slow.and i'm not complaining.=)

chilling..rolling..listening...
this 10day break jus rocks...lets me catch my breath a lil..bring my blood pressure down a lil..away from the hustle and bustle rush to wait wait to rush life inside there...
not like the dull working lives the gal frens are much more appealing...
in fact i think the army's much better...
money matters aside..the experiences we have gained..we are gaining and will gain will definitely serve us better in uni life no?
we get to throw stuff..shoot stuff...
i don't noe..everyone says i like the army life..i won't deny any single bit of tat...

of marx wisdom and worldly rationality...i certainly agree with marx..
after all he's the one who influenced my thoughts during A levels...
when the uni term starts..the real challenges start..and yes i'm referrin to the couples out there..
of course...those frens ard me who are in relationships..i wish them well sincerely...
those people whom i don't know..i jus hav this bit of scepticism reserved in me...

after this chat with this particular person online yest..
i jus realised there are so many pple out there with this kinda mentality..or so i assume...
play play play...jus get into one for the fun...whether it will last..heck with it...
all termed under the "not serious" category of relationships...
and then pple jus start stereotyping men..or women..for tat matter...
when not all men or women are like tat..
cos of tat pple often suffer the streak of destruction in their passing relationships..
it's a vicious cycle...u hav this first one..a very nice one..but it ends on a sour note..it moulds ur thoughts..and then u've another one..but this time..u noe u aren't into the long term shit.so u have fun..and the cycle continues..the stereotypes get stronger...but u still wan to have fun..so u get into another one..

not tat i want to build this fortress of defence ard me...
cos if u ask me..i'm nonchalent about such matters too...having been through tat slight bit..
if people ard me are nonchalent about such matters..why weaken oneself by dwellin on trivial stuff?

mwhahaha..
this entry seems kinda incoherent..
i'm jus speakin out of my mind..referrin to a few people in the process..

"Father i pray tat i've Your wisdom and honour on my left hand..in everything tat i do..and Your righteousness in Christ on my right.Amen."

=)))))
nite cycling tonite..*beams*
time for some good jolly male fun..
i jus had an easy 30min run this morning..had to clear my thoughts..and have some prayers...
and wat can i say manx...
start lacing up ur runnin shoes u pple out there...

tuuuuuuuuuuuueees is long and slow.and i'm not complaining.=)

chilling..rolling..listening...
this 10day break jus rocks...lets me catch my breath a lil..bring my blood pressure down a lil..away from the hustle and bustle rush to wait wait to rush life inside there...
not like the dull working lives the gal frens are much more appealing...
in fact i think the army's much better...
money matters aside..the experiences we have gained..we are gaining and will gain will definitely serve us better in uni life no?
we get to throw stuff..shoot stuff...
i don't noe..everyone says i like the army life..i won't deny any single bit of tat...

of marx wisdom and worldly rationality...i certainly agree with marx..
after all he's the one who influenced my thoughts during A levels...
when the uni term starts..the real challenges start..and yes i'm referrin to the couples out there..
of course...those frens ard me who are in relationships..i wish them well sincerely...
those people whom i don't know..i jus hav this bit of scepticism reserved in me...

after this chat with this particular person online yest..
i jus realised there are so many pple out there with this kinda mentality..or so i assume...
play play play...jus get into one for the fun...whether it will last..heck with it...
all termed under the "not serious" category of relationships...
and then pple jus start stereotyping men..or women..for tat matter...
when not all men or women are like tat..
cos of tat pple often suffer the streak of destruction in their passing relationships..
it's a vicious cycle...u hav this first one..a very nice one..but it ends on a sour note..it moulds ur thoughts..and then u've another one..but this time..u noe u aren't into the long term shit.so u have fun..and the cycle continues..the stereotypes get stronger...but u still wan to have fun..so u get into another one..

not tat i want to build this fortress of defence ard me...
cos if u ask me..i'm nonchalent about such matters too...having been through tat slight bit..
if people ard me are nonchalent about such matters..why weaken oneself by dwellin on trivial stuff?

mwhahaha..
this entry seems kinda incoherent..
i'm jus speakin out of my mind..referrin to a few people in the process..

"Father i pray tat i've Your wisdom and honour on my left hand..in everything tat i do..and Your righteousness in Christ on my right.Amen."

=)))))
nite cycling tonite..*beams*
time for some good jolly male fun..
i jus had an easy 30min run this morning..had to clear my thoughts..and have some prayers...
and wat can i say manx...
start lacing up ur runnin shoes u pple out there...

snippets...

first thing..the weather sucks totally...
i could wear a sleeveless and still feel hot while walkin outside..
wth..looks like i'm goin sleeveless for the rest of the "holiday"..
jus did some shppin with jim n weizhong aft church..
jus realised how shiok retail therapy is..especially aft u've gotten something u've been lookin for weeks..
hahaha..and weizhong told me he was kinda shocked at jim's jubilation in finding the jacket tat he fancied at a dkny sale..
now i noe how gals feel when they shop tog and buy loads of stuff tog..
jus a good feelin eh..

newaes..jus when i needed to listen to His wisdom..His word came jus at a right time durin service today..
"Seek first His kingdom and righteousness.and all things will be added on"
jus at this crucial period where i hav to decide which course to study..which path to take..
alot of considerations to take..
any job prospects? any future in studyin this?
wat's the salary drawn in these jobs??
i hate to think of jobs..income earned watever shit when i'm considerin the things i wan to study..cos heck..i don't think sports hav much of a future in singapore..so naturally the job market will be narrow and limited...
i'm jus focusin on the enjoyment i get from studyin wat i want..against the "enjoyment" i will get from studyin a more practical course of study.
despite sayin tat..i think i'll jus put my exercise science on hold first...
on hold..not abandonin it...
tat day while in camp..i was browsin through the scholarship book..
there's this DSTA scholarship..and a "exercise science and kineisology" course was mentioned...
it got me excited for awhile..but io realised i definitely can't qualify for a DSTA..
it got me thinkin for days..
how to get that degree overseas..
whether i shld go the NIE pe teacher route...
or jus go straight overseas for the degree...
i kept thinkin..
until a local education of economics or acc or business accounting came into the picture while i was chatting with my classmate jeremy..
i told him one of my dreams i have in mind..
study econs or busi management..
see where i go..and maybe find an opportunity to study an overseas sports science degree myself..and set up a sports counsultancy firm..
yea..tat's my dream...
so if it comes true a decade or two later..u read it here first/
hahahha...
when these words came out of my mouth...i jus felt some peace in it..
i can't describe it..maybe it's the whole "ambition" idea tat got me fired up..
but on sat while at the open houses..
in my head..it's either econs econs or econs...and i suddenly felt peace in my mind while thinkin bout whether i should study econs or busi management..
hmms...
i jus noe it's defintely more peaceful..more settled down feelin i hav compared to the "plunge into an overseas education thingy"
i don't noe manx..will continue to pray bout it..
jus like wat i tell others.choose the one tat makes u feel most peaceful..
it's time i do tat to myself..

anyways...i lost the desire to hit the weights..
i don't noe manx..
since enlisting..i've been focusin more on functional training..combat fitness..
so much so tat i find much delight in doin 5bx now than pumpin my chest in the gym..shrugs..
since i popped..i've swam once.ran once.and 5bx once...
i miss the water feelin..in fact..durin my hot bmt..i actually told myself i'm so goin to swim once i get out..cos i've been runnin and running.i need a break..a xtraining break from runnnin..
so swimmin came into my mind..so much so tat i'm goin to hit the pool again tmr morning..
and the nice tan is jus a by product eh.

in quietness.

something to add..
on pop day..oc and my parents were talkin bout me...
my dad remarked tat i'm a quiet person...
and my oc agreed with him..
hmms...
maybe i should learn and sharpen my verbal skills..
but i rather let the holy spirit guide me in it...
verbal skills is definitely an asset..
oh wells...
i realise the amount i speak depends alot on the company at present....
i don't noe manx..to me..a good conversation is a two way thing.
never a one way thing..

one small chapter closed

hmms..jus popped on wed...
in my personal opinion.it's jus the closin of a small chapter...movin on to the next..
after all.rec and pte..our greens are still empty with no insignia...
so yea...i wasn't too preoccupied with it...
but yest while i was on the mrt to orchard at night..i was jus reminiscing about my whole 9 weeks...and i guess the memory tat striked me the hardest was the field camp..
somehow as i try to recollect my thoughts..the field camp jus stood out significantly...
maybe becos we learnt most of the things in field camp..
the rain on the first two days..stinkin up our gortex and camou..
sitting in the rain while havin lessons...

yest during the last area cleanin.while reporting to him the strength..he said "come on greet me for the last time"
somehow throughout the whole 9 weeks..his tat line us summed up the end of bmt...
yea...
aiyo...
life's movin at a breakneck speed..u don't even have time to sit down and realise tat it's the last time tat we are coy line before we moved off to the parade square for the parade...
my maternal grandma passed away in yr1..and life's so hectic tat the pain jus faded away with time...

talkin bout time...
everytime i read something tat concerns me..i block it out using the cross..
As Christ is.so am i in this world..
i'm a changed person..a new creation...the old dude has died..
so if u're still holdin on to the old dude...i feel sorry for u...

i've a good God.my results my bmt..
for all of my days..my hope is in u Jesus.
though durin bmt..i had my fair share of mood swings..
sheena jus pops up almost everytime..
but well..she's happy with him...
durin the results day...i called her in the hall..we jus met up in the middle of the hall..exchanged a few words...
i could still see it in her eyes....or is it jus a figment of my imagination?

watever it is...i shall not seek the worldy affection of Man...which comes and goes..which is temporary.....
i jus got this point reinforced durin bmt....
affection from the opposite sex maybe a good feelin..but when it wanes..it's like a drug..u start to crave for it..for fuck?(yea this's wat's said in the army)
knowing tat God so loves u..isn't it much more satisfying than chasin after someone who might not be interested?
inside i jus now tat this season..my priorities have changed..God army studies..
somehow i jus feel tat He wants me to grow up first...to concentrate on things tat are far more impt first..before thinkin bout the affection thingy..

unbelievable grace/=)

Give glory to God.=)
in my heart..i was prayin for platoon best..but there was no point worryin or thinkin about it...or always worryin of doin this and that..
i jus concentrated on being...
and unexpectedly company best came knockin on my door..
ask and u will be given.seek and u'll find..knock and doors will be opened.
everything point towards Him.
exceedin grace..

praise God.

Grace.tat's all i can say manx.
everyone noes wat problems i had during the study period.
how i jus got into this group of pple whom i can draw strength from..
they jus appear from nowhere...
pple whom i seldom talk to in sch..
and they suddenly jus come around..
everyday..we jus will ourself to study..and i believe it's by the grace of God.
i still hav renfu's msg...it sums up everything..
"but by the grace of God, i am what i am, and His grace to me was not without effect.No, i worked harder than all of them- yet not i, but by the grace of God tat was with me.
lets not not 4get how thru this muggin period Christ hv given us inner strength even in our weakest n discouraged moments.Sth jus drove us to mug everyday from morning 2 nite.n i doubt its by human effort tt we even came to a pt whereby we enjoyed ourselves despite the mundane muggin routine.

yeps tat's the most impt parts of his msg..in exact words..
it says it all doesn't it..
i'm still speechless..shocked...
pple ask me..i will point them to the cross.totally.

today i forgot who..he said i deserve this grades..sayin tat i work so hard in sch...
but right there and then in my head..i was refuting his statement...
nopes..not by my self effort....but through Him.