one small chapter closed

hmms..jus popped on wed...
in my personal opinion.it's jus the closin of a small chapter...movin on to the next..
after all.rec and pte..our greens are still empty with no insignia...
so yea...i wasn't too preoccupied with it...
but yest while i was on the mrt to orchard at night..i was jus reminiscing about my whole 9 weeks...and i guess the memory tat striked me the hardest was the field camp..
somehow as i try to recollect my thoughts..the field camp jus stood out significantly...
maybe becos we learnt most of the things in field camp..
the rain on the first two days..stinkin up our gortex and camou..
sitting in the rain while havin lessons...

yest during the last area cleanin.while reporting to him the strength..he said "come on greet me for the last time"
somehow throughout the whole 9 weeks..his tat line us summed up the end of bmt...
yea...
aiyo...
life's movin at a breakneck speed..u don't even have time to sit down and realise tat it's the last time tat we are coy line before we moved off to the parade square for the parade...
my maternal grandma passed away in yr1..and life's so hectic tat the pain jus faded away with time...

talkin bout time...
everytime i read something tat concerns me..i block it out using the cross..
As Christ is.so am i in this world..
i'm a changed person..a new creation...the old dude has died..
so if u're still holdin on to the old dude...i feel sorry for u...

i've a good God.my results my bmt..
for all of my days..my hope is in u Jesus.
though durin bmt..i had my fair share of mood swings..
sheena jus pops up almost everytime..
but well..she's happy with him...
durin the results day...i called her in the hall..we jus met up in the middle of the hall..exchanged a few words...
i could still see it in her eyes....or is it jus a figment of my imagination?

watever it is...i shall not seek the worldy affection of Man...which comes and goes..which is temporary.....
i jus got this point reinforced durin bmt....
affection from the opposite sex maybe a good feelin..but when it wanes..it's like a drug..u start to crave for it..for fuck?(yea this's wat's said in the army)
knowing tat God so loves u..isn't it much more satisfying than chasin after someone who might not be interested?
inside i jus now tat this season..my priorities have changed..God army studies..
somehow i jus feel tat He wants me to grow up first...to concentrate on things tat are far more impt first..before thinkin bout the affection thingy..