pitter patter pitter patter..

i woke up to the sound of rain splashing.....
right now when i'm typing...the splashing's reduced to a mellow sound of light rain...with the occasional thunder booming in the distance...
sometimes i slip into that "i miss her" mode...
dooooooon't noe sia...shldn't have talked to sheena online last night..
started the river of reminiscing...

BUT...somehow i always cut it off halfway..
no point thinking back..cos i'm such a different person since a long time ago..
even when i scroll down my gallery in my mobile...i look at myself and tell myself that tat dude is dead...
yes it might look the same as me...
but seriously...i think my past photos look different from how i look like now...
it's jus different now..
i'm in Christ now..i wasn't back then..i was in so called principles..

this happens occasionally...
in army...u tend to get a lil lonely....
but i realise it's jus one of the ways the loser's tryin to push my buttons..
and i shan't let him do that...
Praise God.

oh ya....
on mon night...
the loser tried to come again...
she msged "which uni are u goin to?likeng refuses to tell me"
i replied "smu..where all the prettty girls are"
then came her reply,"yayy..then u can go cheat the young girls :)"

i tell u..when i read this...straight away something shot right up in me...
however i kept reminding myself of the righteousness that i have...
i really don't noe if it's pure stupidity in her remarks..or i really don't noe what the hell she's tryin to push..
i think that's the stupidest reply u can ever give me...
i wanted so much to tell my frens in camp about this incident..
but i din cos i don't want to be bothered by these comments...
kept confessing by my lips...and everything went away..
anyways..now i understood why likeng suddenly msged me on mon night askin which uni i'm going to...
when i received his msg..i thought he's tryin to keep in touch..that's why he's askin me..
but when her msg came..i realised why likeng msged me for..

anyways...
to continue...
i din reply after that..i wanted to reply and rebuke her stupid remarks...took the phone in my hand..and wanted to type something..then something stop me..
quick to listen.. slow to speak..slow to anger..
and i put down my phone immediately...
few minutes later..she msged "anyways..u wan to meet up soon?i'm tired of goin out with likeng everytime..don't worry.there's nothing..my cutie wotie is waiting for me in uni"
when i read this..i can't help but to think of the stupidity in her remarks again...
seriously u're just desperate u noe...
i tink from last time till now...the desperacy in u is still there..it's so in u
and my impression still stays the same...u're still so desperate for affection.
OUT OF COURTESY..i replied "err..thanks but no thanks.yep"
then her last reply came, "okie.no biggy..ta"
disclaimer: the content in these msges are as true as they were..no attempt has been made to change the content to try to exaggerate anything. the sheer stupidity of the remarks jus made me remember them so clearly.

i thank God that she din disturb me after that....

i thank God for Jesus..cos in Christ i'm able to refute such stupidity in remarks that try to bring me down..
no way i tell u..
in Jesus's name, Amen.
=)