of cars and women.

i decided to be a kind soul and meet up with this surveyor who persistently wanted to follow up the survey which i did during bmt..
930am was the arranged time but i msged her saying that i'll be 5min late..
her reply said that she would be late and so the time will be pushed back to 945am.
i reached kallang macs around 940..and waited till 1010..
still no one in sight..

me:"hey i'm sorry but i think i need to leave in 10min time.i've church to attend"

her:"i'm really very sorry...sorry to keep u waiting..i was held up..i give u a treat after your church to make it up..really sorry"

me:"it's okie...anyways i can't make it after church too..is the survey really that important?"

her:"actually it's not really that important but would jus like to meet up so that i can treat u..feelin very bad now"

me:"it's okie.needn't treat la.next time just be more professional can liaos"

her:"okie shall take your advice blah blah..."

the exact words of the messaging..that i can't rem..but this's the gist of it..
early morning it was raining..she had to punish me by making a trip to macs..that's fine with me..
and apparently i think she needs to get a watch..either that or punctuality needs to be drilled into her brains..
like hullo..u're asking pple to do a survey..and u're late..
wat's this thing called professionalism all about?
next..i'm not a kid..neither would i need or want a treat..
as in..aiyo..
when u say i treat u to make it up.it jus somewat seems like u're trying to dangle a sweet in front of a kid..
*shivers*
unfortunately i can't rem how this surveyor looked like...
P.S. don't think she's a good looker..maybe if she's one..i wouldn't have been so angry..
but yea tat's besides the point..
jus realised the stupidity and superficiality of my comment..
even if it was a pretty girl who held me up..
i would still shoot off about the professionalism thing..

lessons learnt: never agree to follow up watever nonsense survey u did.

anyways..i'm leavin for brunei tonight..for a whole 10days..
don't really noe wat it will bring but i noe definitely it's goin to be tough..
jus pray that these 10days will pass in a flash..and God will see me through..

been talkin to three of my friends lately..
they all have this common thing>loneliness or not being able to get over someone.

i thank God that He fills me up..making me able to get over sheena..finally..i hope..

of cars and women..
actually i've tonnes to say about these two subjects...cars and women..
but i realise it's case sensitive..so zip it up i shall..and maybe i'll only tell my close friends if u ask..

dusty rusty or whatever nonsense

okies...i'm sounding incoherent in my title..
but if u've realised...yes u readers( i wonder if there are still readers for my blog..if u're still reading my entries..please tell me who u are eh)
anyways the reason why i don't blog that often anymore..it's because of the reflection entries that i have to do and hand in to my wing comm...
to date i've done two reflection entries...yep..all my ST term stuff is in those entries...so i find no point in writing them again in my blog...
another thing is that i sorta started this small little black book where i write all my thoughts there and then..so yep whichever matter that's worth mentioning there and then..i write it in that book..it's very personal actually..cos it's just my own thoughts..what i feel..
very different from the blog..
anyways..
for the past few days i've been feelin kinda stressed inside..
not really sure..maybe cos there's going to be changes around..
yepp..
so much so that i've lost my appetite..
i don't noe...
the only thing that entices me to eat..it's actually jus milk and cereal..
the rest of the civilian food..i always eat and feel kinda weird inside..
*shrugs*
maybe i've been too used to safti food day in day out..

oh wells...would be leavin for brunei come monday..
life's too fast for u to catch it...
but i thank God for my precious moments of rest...active rest whereby i meet up with friends..catch up a lil. spend time with my parents..spend time with God..my church friends..

but yea...
i thank God that i'm over sheena..
no point thinkin about someone who's alr happy..who's alr a different person..as i am too..
so yep..
right now..i'm just having postiive expectations of things to come..

an amazing 7 days at marsiling

phew..jus completed platoon field camp cum exercise spade...
it's really amazing how real God is...
it has been raining for the past few days before we started this field camp..
but divine intervention actually made the 7 days rain-free...totally..
there are so many stories i would like to share...
so much so that i think once i share it..i think only Christians would read my blog for the wonderful testimonies of the simplest things that happened during the field camp..
oh wells...
praise Him...

it was physically tiring..and i jus let Him carry me through...
there was one point when my platoon had to repeat a flanking exercise 3whole times...
and it was the first time i questioned myself...
why am i doing this?
to complete the exercise.yes.
so that the instructor will be satisfied.yes.
to be an officer.yes.
i'm an officer-to-be.yes.
but i realised all these reasons are not strong enough to actually jolt my tired limbs and burning lungs back to normal.
and so i searched for answers while i was walkin back from the exercise...
then something powerful struck me..
it's not about the rank.the course..or even the thought of being an officer that should push u..
yes being an officer-to-be u have to set a high standard for urself..as such u mus endure through the hard training..u realise that this train of thought actually pushes pple...and it do push me sometimes..
but think another level deeper..
we are actually doing this for the country..
it actually went all the way down to the first level> we are doing national service to train to protect the land.
furthermore, we are training to be officers.and the high standard is necessary so as to lead men in defending the country..
what i realised is that people jus stop at there...
the motivation of being an officer pushes them...
but when u go down to the most primal level of national service..
more people are involved...
u train to protect the land so that ur parents can sleep peacefully..
ur civilian friends can walk along orchard road peacefully.

arghs...it's 1 level deeper..
but i seriously thought of this as an answer for me..
being an officer is jus 1 thing..
but wemus always fall back on "being an officer of the SAF.which is to lead to defend the country"
when u look at the last part. u finally get the big picture..instead of jus concentrating on our own personal reasons of wanting to be an officer

for those who get it..i'm very glad..
for those who don't understand..
i think it's best i explain it in person..that's the best..hahaha