decisions...

hmms...
this weekend..freaking busy packing my army stuff..
i thank God that i'm able to attend campus service...
at first i wanted to rush home to pack my stuff before heading out again to dxo on sat nite...
but i decided to stay for dinner with the care group people...
as always..i find it very peaceful actually..to have dinner with my care group..regardless of age or season...
i just find it very peaceful..like a sanctuary...to just be around with them...
and i chionged back thinking if i should stay at home or still go dxo..
in the end..i went dxo..and i din drink at all...the music sucks...the crowd kinda too..
and i'm not going to step into that place for a long time..
MOS will be a better place to venture to next time...
anyways..a meagre 4 and a half hours of sleep before i woke up at 8am..and i packed all the way..
was thinking if i should attend third and book in straight away...but but..i realise it was too rushed and i haven't packed my stuff yet..
instead i forgo service today...and decided to find my mum for lunch instead...
i thank God for my family..
as what coach leslie said yest...
thank God for our families...
and God gave us ourselves as a blessing to our families because of who we are in Christ..
i do not know why my tear ducts have been hypersensitive recently..
i still rem on thurs when i came back from brunei..i took a nap..
and i dreamt that i was having a meal with my mum and sis..
somewhat the time spent with them was very short and i was saddened in that dream...i dreamt i cried..and i woke up with tears streaming just at that instant...

i don't noe manx.. my sis's leaving for overseas exchange come august...
she won't be back till mid dec..i just feel kinda sad that she won;'t be able to attend my commissioning parade.....
and i kinda dread her to leave..
cos from august all the way to dec...it's goin to be tough in there...

anyways..back to the lunch..
i had lunch with my mum..i left in a cab with tears streaming down again..
i don't know why...

all in all..
i just thank God for the time i have outside...