independence.

independence is such a big word.
army is supposed to make one grow up and be independent, but somehow it also makes men more dependent on their parents.
i jus opened an attachment from dawn..
about all the qualities in a woman that God has created..
coupled with the wonderful background music, the attachment just made me feel sad after reading it.

this 'dry' period certainly isn't unfamiliar. i had it before in OCS..during the first 3 weeks or so..
the first 4 weeks or so in ETI..this dry period is around..
when i'm sitting at home trying to complete my homework, and suddenly i just start to think.
think about her, think about the stupid punishment, think about my sis's departure to europe for her overseas exchange, in which she won't be around for my commissioning parade, think about my mother who's not staying with me.
army is certainly making me independent..............................stop
while i was typing the above sentence, the relevation just came crashing down..
the more such external things are tryin to make me more independent of them, the more i can be dependent on God.
this will be the time when i'll be drawn closer and when nothing else seems to be dependable on..i know i can depend on my God who's always there at the eternal.
hallelujah