guess who's back

it's been two weeks since i returned to singapore..
a month since i last logged in to blogger..
seems like a very long time..
before my command of eng starts to deteriorate any further..shit..i honestly forgot the spelling of the deteriorate word..it looks super funny...oh gosh..i'm so going to bang my head against the wall for spelling the word wrongly..
okies..i've jus checked the dict..what u see is the correct spelling..
i initially spelt it as 'detiorate'
B.E.A.U.tiful..

anyways..thank God my thailand trip was smooth sailing..
and all praise to be with Him in giving the SOM to me..
His grace's so evident..
usually when this particular instructor is arnd..i just feel like my development is blocked..i can't be sincere when i talk to him..
but praise Him that since the last two local exercises before the thailand trip..he was in charge of other platoons..
so in short..i din really get to see him nor interact with him for a whole month..
hallelujah..
and i just found out my pc attends new creation as well..
i don't noe manx..just felt His love all around throughout the whole thailand trip..
almost got into trouble for an incident..but thankfully He pulled me out of the situation victorious..

right now i'm just trusting Him that i can attend the year end church camp..it'll be in the middle of my initiation...but i'm praying that His favour would be on me..so much so that i can apply for leave from my superiors and get it...

my mum came with me to church today..
i asked her yest if she's interested to come and take a look..since i'm attending new creation..why not ask her to take a look at what i'm involved in...and she agreed..
i somehow trust and believe that she'll come back for more sessions..though i din ask...
i offered her the hokkien service..hopefully she would attend next week..
anyways..i'm just glad..or rather..i just feel peace and joy..
over nothing..can't describe it..but peace and joy over nothing is good..

i'm thankful for having a coach who's willing to spend time talkin to me...
thankful for a care group leader who always shares about Him..giving me new revelations..
in fact..coach andy talked to me about aiming for SOM just before thailand..when i was still asking myself if i should go for it..my instructor din tell me he's pushing me for sword..that's why i din tell anybody at all..i've received questions from my friends.."u going for sword not?"
i always don't noe how to answer simply because my platoon instructor din tell me he's pushing me for sword..anyways..
i don't think i'm deserving..i'm not the most gilat person around..
but i noe it's simply because of His grace that i'm placed in this position..
and i believe this position is a testimony of His goodness...

i'm running standard chartered half marathon next sunday..
ain't really prepared for it..meaning that i did not really do three months of solid training..
i'm just lookin to go out there and have fun..
and maybe discover myself along the way..in the midst of my aching calves and overworking lungs..