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tongues..
the miraculous power of tongues..

where sin abounds. grace super abounds.
therefore do not let sin reign in your life.

sometimes.our flesh jus does wrong.
the succumbin to temptation.

the weekend that jus passed.holds fond memories.

but i said "Lord keep my eyes on Jesus. Man's affection will come and go.temporal and fades away. But His finished work on the cross is eternal"

You have big plans for me to prosper i know.cos Your Word is faithful
i might stumble and fall sometimes.but You will hold my hand and pick me up again.again and again. that i will walk in Your wisdom.and before sin can reign and subsequently death, let me walk in Your ways.Your glorifying ways.
ABBA

the crown.

1 Cor 9:24-26.
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. they do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. therefore i do not run like a man running aimlessly; i do not fight like a man beating the air.

thurs.170107
i was at macritchie..
all geared up to run. so restful.letting God lead the way.
i arrived early.walked around.prayed in tongues..
it rained.almost got cancelled.the rain stopped.everyone was lining up at the start line.
i got called up by the 'team manager'
some admin screw up.supposed to run for 3div.they registered me under engineers.so if i win something for engineers.3div might make some noise.jeopardize the team chances for engineers.
it was painful.
i was ready.
and i had to leave the place.
worse still.my dad was standing just at the starting line to take pictures.
if he wasn't there.i would have felt better dealin with it alone.
jus as the runners were lining up. i ran to him.told him to walk back to the car
he said anxiously, "the race's going to start soon.quick go back to the start line"
seriously it made it worse.
not that i didn't want him to be there.
but yea.at that time i preferred walking off alone.not having the need to explain to anyone.
the horn went off.the runners shot off..i walked off.
i asked God.why?
i was bitter.i checked my phone.1msg from anna
"greatness is not measured by what you do.what you have or the position that you are in.greatness is in the person that we are living for.it's Jesus that we are living for.let not the world take Him away from me"
at that point in time.it didn't register.i tried to read it again and again to meditate on it.couldn't
my dad was in the car asking qns.i was explaining.
trying to keep quiet alone.but i had to explain to him patiently as well.
weather wasn't tat good.
i reached home.changed and went out for my run.
haflway it ran.but i completed my round anyway.
the rain couldn't stop me.but God did.

it's a safsa run.the good runners from all the formations were there.
doing well in the race could get me in the safsa trainin team.
i've waited for an opportunity.it hasn't come yet
i was seeking the wrong thing.i wasn't seeking His kingdom.His righteousness.
i was seeking the finish line.to get into a team.

in the race. seek not the finish line but His finished work at the cross.
last sat's msg jus came to me.
it's amazing.what word i hear.what word i receive.throughout the week things will happen.and the word will jus sprout out for the situation.amazing Word.

the race is not over yet.run the race with perseverance.
always lookin at the crown that we already have.
i have won the race.
i have won the race.
i have won the race.
cos Jesus did it for me.

smack that.
how many people understand my passion for running?
when i mention running to my mates
their look jus says" huh how can someone like running when i hate it so much?"
but yea.He understands.
i'm still young.he's preserving my legs for lifelong running.
so much so that when i'm in my 20s 30s 40s 50s 60s 70s 80s 90s 100s
i will continue to win races in my own age categories
cos He makes my bones strong

pai seh seng.
for pang sehing u.
i had to run an errand.
find out what happened.i had to run it.
quite amusing.come to think of it.

don't take things for granted.hmms.

talk talk talk..
i realised i took some things for granted..i assumed..assumption is the mother of all f***ed ups.
'aights.. tat's a phrase commonly passed around in NS..
anyways. friction among people is common after awhile.
there's no fairy tale relationships all our lives.
yep.accept.don't condemn.accomodate.share.strength.bond.God.Jesus.Spirit.JCEA

everytime there's a challenge.it means that God's huge tsunami of blessings are going to fall on everyone in the cg..
everytime there's a challenge.it means that every single chosen one is about to be lifted to a higher position.
everytime there's a challenge. it means that a breakthrough beckons.
hallelujah.

thank God for campus
thank God for service
thank God for bible study! with the exclamation mark in it..
jus don't disturb me when i'm in church.with all the calls to ta bao macs back to camp
the more u spend time with the Word.the more the right decision grows out from ur heart.
that's why i've decided to jus book in tonight.instead of goin to the airport.

oh wells.next week.i'm not really sure.
the painted veil?

a thought came into my mind.
how is it like to give ur earthly father a hug?
i mean.guys don't usually show their affection openly.let alone guys from the -golden- era
but a genuine hug between father and son.can do wonders...
recently..thoughts of salvation for my dad surfaced..initially it's only my mum..but now my dad has come into the picture..
rest rest rest.
there's no condemnation for what he has done..
likewise there's no condemnation for what i've done
if he believes..

i don't noe if it's His plan or wat
but my dad and i committed almost the same mistake.
the only difference is that his concerned the family.

secure in Christ.
i've given up on my own to achieve that coveted washboard.
and i noe only when i give up.it's goin to come so easily.
hahaha..
so yea.everything in moderation.
yep.discipline is good.too much discipline on ur own trying too hard to do something.tat's self effort.
in the not too distant past. i would really plan my training schedule for my running..
i would fret a little whenever i miss a run due to inconvenience..
i would plan nice nice..
but now..rest..
the gifts that He has placed in us.He will make them prosper in His time.
of course i'm not sayin that i needn't train.
i jus ran hard jus now in the chilly weather.felt good.praise Him for His strength.
but yea.relax.the gift will prosper.
=)

i thank You for

i thank You for being able to attend my
first bible study of the year
first cg of the year
first service of the year
Hallelujah
awesome.

i will live to love You.

God knows..He knows...He knows..
that my shepherd knows..even she got some guesses wrong..
yea...
i jus felt the need to let her know..
it's not nice to hide a 'secret life' away from the life i have with my cg..

yest...i was so bored at home..i went down for a walk..
walk walk walk to circuit rd..ate some supper..felt full..wanted to walk to marine parade..
then my friend called and asked me out..
that crazy guy tried to get me drunk..but i didn't.thank God...
but yea..some good male bonding fun with my sec sch fren whom i think is the most steady friend after all the jc years..

comments?

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big shoutout to kelly ezer and seng!~
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rest relax and grow.

rest relax and grow..
this line was with me at the start of year 2006
the start of this first week of 2007 suddenly pointed me towards this line again..
something tat happened durin the week..
suddenly felt something to do something..
but hey God gave me a back seat..
i asked Him..why? i was already preparing...
tat He told me to rest to relax and i'll grow in Him..
to just take a backseat..
cos really..
this week..when i booked in..with all the tekanin shit around..
plus the constant thinkin of someone..
almost threw me off the Jesus balance..
but my God is good...
you can go beyond the will of God..but you will never go beyond the reach of Him. Hallelujah

keep my eyes on Him

i'm goin in.
yea.everytime i have too long a break outside..
i kinda have a distraction to bring in..
but i'm really goin to leave it at the cross..
no use carryin those emotional burden on my bag..
as i'm typing now..
my mind's weaving in and out...

"peace i leave to you.peace i give to you. not as that of the world. let not your hearts be troubled.neither let it be afraid"

keep my eyes on You and You alone. not that of man.or a woman.

i'm thankful really..for this God given break..
no words can describe how thankful i am..
it's time to align myself with His purpose for me in army..
a position given. not a job.
work given for me to showcase my talents in Christ.
not slogging.
Hallelujah.