the crown.

1 Cor 9:24-26.
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. they do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. therefore i do not run like a man running aimlessly; i do not fight like a man beating the air.

thurs.170107
i was at macritchie..
all geared up to run. so restful.letting God lead the way.
i arrived early.walked around.prayed in tongues..
it rained.almost got cancelled.the rain stopped.everyone was lining up at the start line.
i got called up by the 'team manager'
some admin screw up.supposed to run for 3div.they registered me under engineers.so if i win something for engineers.3div might make some noise.jeopardize the team chances for engineers.
it was painful.
i was ready.
and i had to leave the place.
worse still.my dad was standing just at the starting line to take pictures.
if he wasn't there.i would have felt better dealin with it alone.
jus as the runners were lining up. i ran to him.told him to walk back to the car
he said anxiously, "the race's going to start soon.quick go back to the start line"
seriously it made it worse.
not that i didn't want him to be there.
but yea.at that time i preferred walking off alone.not having the need to explain to anyone.
the horn went off.the runners shot off..i walked off.
i asked God.why?
i was bitter.i checked my phone.1msg from anna
"greatness is not measured by what you do.what you have or the position that you are in.greatness is in the person that we are living for.it's Jesus that we are living for.let not the world take Him away from me"
at that point in time.it didn't register.i tried to read it again and again to meditate on it.couldn't
my dad was in the car asking qns.i was explaining.
trying to keep quiet alone.but i had to explain to him patiently as well.
weather wasn't tat good.
i reached home.changed and went out for my run.
haflway it ran.but i completed my round anyway.
the rain couldn't stop me.but God did.

it's a safsa run.the good runners from all the formations were there.
doing well in the race could get me in the safsa trainin team.
i've waited for an opportunity.it hasn't come yet
i was seeking the wrong thing.i wasn't seeking His kingdom.His righteousness.
i was seeking the finish line.to get into a team.

in the race. seek not the finish line but His finished work at the cross.
last sat's msg jus came to me.
it's amazing.what word i hear.what word i receive.throughout the week things will happen.and the word will jus sprout out for the situation.amazing Word.

the race is not over yet.run the race with perseverance.
always lookin at the crown that we already have.
i have won the race.
i have won the race.
i have won the race.
cos Jesus did it for me.

smack that.
how many people understand my passion for running?
when i mention running to my mates
their look jus says" huh how can someone like running when i hate it so much?"
but yea.He understands.
i'm still young.he's preserving my legs for lifelong running.
so much so that when i'm in my 20s 30s 40s 50s 60s 70s 80s 90s 100s
i will continue to win races in my own age categories
cos He makes my bones strong

pai seh seng.
for pang sehing u.
i had to run an errand.
find out what happened.i had to run it.
quite amusing.come to think of it.