loveably lovely. wth am i talkin about.

hmms..
campus today was great..seriously great..
God spoke to me as the tears jus fell freely..like never before..
"know of My Love for you first.just know my love for you.that Jesus gave His all for you. before u can even step out and love others"

it's so real..
and coach lynne said this in the ambs meeting..
we must all know that we are loved by Him first..before we can go out and love people the way Jesus loves us..

Jesus is our qualification..
jus days ago i was thinking about stuff..
and yea..
today i jus talked to this meng guy..
he told me that maybe i can take acca before i enlist for smu acc..
might give me a headstart in geting internships..
yes.tat's practical advise..
and like waht i told my sister..
i don't want to do something jus to achieve it for some benefit..
i jus don't want to pursue the degree because it can so call secure me internships and stuff..
of course..practically speaking..it's true..
but when i do something..it's not doing it for the money and stuff.i must do it because i enjoy it and i want to do it.not because i do it just for the degree or money.
ta'ts why u see up till now..i haven't gotten a driving licence..
getting one can entail me using m dad's car..
but i don't see the rush..when i learn driving..i'll do it out of my freetime..and enjoyment..
in short..are u seeking just the finishin line..or are u seekin the process..
oh wells..blame morrie..my fren whom i read about in tues with him..
arsehole jus got me thinkin..
hahaha crude way like i noe morrie at the back of my fingertips like that..

anyways..pastor chin told us his story today..
that he stayed away from his wife for around 5 years..
and i was wondering..
staying away means? minimal contact? staying away from a relationship?
the time spent apart made them discover their own individuality in their walk with God..
and these 5 years..
it jus made them grow in their own way..
cos neither was really affecting each other's growth as a person.

and i was jus thinking..
this's really cool..

i don't know manx..
i think it's dumb to have someone jus for ur needs..
it's selfish..
although pastor said it's natural..
human all have needs..whether or not they show it explicitly or inplicitly

once u put expectations on a person..
and that person doesn't have it..disappointment sets in..
so why put expectations on people?

intertwined lives but u noe the sense of detachment when it's needed.