arrows

while God is shooting forth his arrows in ambs on june 15th

my portion shall be receiving His love on that day itself which is more than enough.

i have a responsibility in camp on that day..
to get some things moving..
that shall be my portion

i am God's arrow..
you just find me in different places that's all.

praise the Lord.
=)

filling some space here

it's been a long time since i last blogged twice a day
i've been away from my workplace for one month.was cooped up at a place for a month with back to back days of using my brain juice.
without much time for computers except for the late night run squeezed in at probably midnight or close to that.

this is totally a random entry
i've just taken my dinner.maybe because i want to keep myself from falling asleep
might as well do some typing to keep my fingers occupied.

anyways.
i've chanced upon two books for the past one week.
i was at the range last week and i found a book titled "real-life encounters with Jesus"
i thought it belonged to my friend sitting next beside me but when i asked him later, he replied otherwise.
looks like the book was placed there for a reason.
i was contemplating whether to take the book back and read it on my own.or leave it there for a purpose.
in the end i just left it there.
don't ask me why

next was at the swimming pool
i chanced upon this book "woe was I"
a book about the correct use of english grammar and vocabulary
or rather common misued terms in the english language.
the book's still sitting in my bag right now.
but i guess there's a reason for me to pick that book up.
i just feel really rusty where english is concerned.

oh wells.

i live to know you more.

hmms...
sometimes you ask yourself
is it because the time distance and space is a reason, the interest is a reason, the army work which i'm going through now is a reason, or most importantly, the increasing love of God that fills my heart is a reason.
all i know is that my God is a jealous God.

on monday
one of my men suffered a panic attack/hyperventilate
basically to those who know nothing about how it looks,
he just thrashed his arms and legs around like a demon-possessed person.
i was in the safety rover to the medical centre.
somehow i knew it's wise to be calm.and indeed i was.
all i did in the rover was to pray in tongues, and lay my hands on his chest.
the rest i leave it to God.

Jesus prayed, then he lay hands. Healing flowed.

i'm not Jesus. But He lives in me to shine His light.
so at the end of the day, it's not about what i can do.it's about what He can do.

still i thank God for this portion in army.
you won't experience the dynamic interpersonal relationships you have in camp here compared to outside.
their lives are in Your hands.

thank You.

thank You Lord for the fellowship
thank You Lord for these people.
thank You Lord for the portion You give me in this cg.
that we MUST all get together for a meal before these people move up to another portion in other places.

this nba referee was interviewed in runnersworld.
he said he loved the 800m race the most.
it represents life as it is.
for the first 400m people usually stick together.
as for the next 400m, the runners will be split up.
just like how it is in life.

but there's no denying the Godly alliances made.

arghs.
after service today i guess i was pretty sleepy
was awaken in the middle of the night by a call,
after lunch i felt really "off". like immediately after service you feel kinda attacked.
i guess i just needed rest.
and rest indeed i had.a nap followed by a hair cut(sucks) followed by a 50min run.
praise Him for everything.

what is impossible with men.it is possible with God.(planet shakers on june 15)

the God of Israel shall be your rear guard. (Christine)

sometimes when i look around me.i kinda feel awestruck by some people.
who choose to abandon everything and wait patiently on Him.to wait patiently for His results even though the flesh is getting a little worried and impatient.
when everyone seems to get notified on their uni interviews and admissions.
while some are not notified yet.
all i know is that.
see God as faithful.
and perseverance in Christ will be rewarded by God according to the riches of His glory and the abundance of grace.
Surely
Surely
Surely

"Son of David, have mercy on me!" shouted the blind man
those who were leading the front asked this man to keep quiet, BUT ALL THE MORE HE SHOUTED
"Son of David, have mercy on me!"
"what can i do for you?" asked Jesus
"i want to see"
such a simple request.such perseverance.it paid off in the end.

=)

bored

i'm frigging bored right now.
i'm on course. but thank God for this rest.
i'm hiding under the radar now.
i need to find things to read.
've read the papers.'ve read a few mags.
have read a lil on the Word.
i've realised.
just meditate on one or two verses each day and it goes a long way.
no use reading the whole bible like a story book and no revelation comes your way.
i just realise there's a never ending wealth of His wisdom in His Word.

1peter1
men are like grass
and their glory is like flowers on te field
grass die and flowers wither.
but the Word of God stands forever

as much as my memory can carry me

the more you know how much He loves you
the more you just want to devote yourself to Him.
and not man.

the evening run.

a click of the watch set to 35min and off he went.
without any warmup, he started slow, with the intention of doing an easy run in his mind.
as he crossed the first street, he felt good and picked up his pace a little. initially he wanted to run in the direction towards geylang east but he followed the green man at the traffic light and crossed whichever junction that was available at that time.
direction now is towards geylang
"oh no don't tell me i'm goin to run to national stadium again?"
at the next junction, he followed the green man again and crossed.
direction now is towards geylang east, only that this time it's on the other side of geylang east.
direction now is towards paya lebar.
off he went.step by step.left to right and right to left.from the concrete pavements to the grass and sandy soil on the sides to the road.
no one else is running except him.the constant dodging of the pedestrians almost brought him to the point of irritation until he could find a peaceful stretch where he could go relatively straight.
passed paya lebar.towards geylang serai and eunos.
once again pedestrains were the constraint, pushing him to the roads running in the opposite direction to the cars.
passed eunos.towards kembangan
"damn i thought i told myself not to run to kembangan already?"
but still his legs carried him till he reached lorong G.
that familiar junction and coffee shop at the side of the road awakened his senses.
a right turn and he was running towards that house.
passed that house and made a u-turn back.
"empty.there's no use in going to that house when she's miles away"
his watch read 15mins left.
"damn i'm past my halfway mark of 17min.gotta speed up a lil to get back home"
initially he had a lazy easy run in his mind.but he can't resist the idea of running a negative split whereby the second half of the run is done in a shorter time compared to the first half, meaning that you're actually training harder when your muscles are already tired from the first half.
off he went, trying to increase his cadence and so did his rate of breathing.
his calves were already aching badly at this time but he still had to carry on.
"what separates a satisfactory run from a lousy run is that at the end of the run, no matter how wound up you are.you have the timing on your watch to prove it"
as he was running, he thanked God for everything.
thanked Him for legs so that he could do what he likes to do, which is obviously running
thanked Him for health so that he could do what he likes to do
thanked Him for lungs so that he could do what he likes to do
and then his memory brought him back to the 15km run that he did last time.
throughout the whole run,it was painful and tiring but in his mind, all he saw was Jesus hung at the cross.
"if Jesus could endure all the way to the cross"
"what's this little physical pain compared to what he did?"
"i am God's beloved, in whom He is well pleased with me"
with this fresh revelation, he completed the 15km and ran an extra 2km due to some error in the marshalling, but he still came in first in his category.
back to the run, everytime he committed the painful part of the run to Him, His strength always carried him faster in his steps towards the finish.
back to geylang east, aljunied mrt where foreigners abound
dodging them brought him to the point of irritation again
he had to get past this particular street fast to get back home.
and he did eventually.
time then was 7 in the evening.
the sky was bluish black.

another run in the bag.

the day of Sabbath

labour day holiday is the day of Sabbath for me.
and i realise Australia doesn't have a labour day at all
a day of Sabbath.
of waking up late.cereals and sleeping again.till i have to wake up to do some studying.
the thought of hitting the weights was aborted due to the early closing hours of the kallang gym at 5pm
weather doesn't seem too favourable for swimming either.in other words the weather isn't scorching hot enough. cloudy weather makes for a nice lazy swim but it has no purpose whatsoever in getting a tan.so it's aborted.
the only thing i can think of is go for a lazy easy run which i will do so later.
it's so lazy
lazy

but in this quietness and laziness and inactivity
He is with me.

that i must distinguish a lazy day from melancholy.