i live to know you more.

hmms...
sometimes you ask yourself
is it because the time distance and space is a reason, the interest is a reason, the army work which i'm going through now is a reason, or most importantly, the increasing love of God that fills my heart is a reason.
all i know is that my God is a jealous God.

on monday
one of my men suffered a panic attack/hyperventilate
basically to those who know nothing about how it looks,
he just thrashed his arms and legs around like a demon-possessed person.
i was in the safety rover to the medical centre.
somehow i knew it's wise to be calm.and indeed i was.
all i did in the rover was to pray in tongues, and lay my hands on his chest.
the rest i leave it to God.

Jesus prayed, then he lay hands. Healing flowed.

i'm not Jesus. But He lives in me to shine His light.
so at the end of the day, it's not about what i can do.it's about what He can do.

still i thank God for this portion in army.
you won't experience the dynamic interpersonal relationships you have in camp here compared to outside.
their lives are in Your hands.