how not to draw from them?

while reading Kelly's blog.
it dawned on me, how not to draw from them even when they have already moved up?
the NS guys went through the A levels period first, hence we can share with these people then about studies and all.
and now that we NS guys still have a year left before uni, while the gals will go uni first, how not to draw from them by reading up on their stories posted on their blog on their uni life?

keep the sharing going on through technology,
i'm sure it'll serve as reminders when i go in next year.
=)

they say i say you say she says he says that perfect love casts out all fear.

i ask myself why i had this fear when i heard that piece of news.
i realise it wasn't perfect love at all..
indeed it was Man's affection that isn't perfect, hence the fear came when i heard that piece of news.

Jesus's love is the same yesterday today and forevermore.
When you just know that His love does not waver and it's for eternity.
You will stop depending on Man's affection.

easier said than done?
walk the journey and confess it out loud with your mouth.
walk this journey with Him.
everyday He will just drop manna for me to eat.

it's not easy i tell you.
but when you personally experience His victory coming through in your emotions.
you can't help but to praise Him.

i thought.

to all those who are moving out of your comfortable speed boat into another boat,
the boat may be just as close as a stone's throw away
or the boat may be a distance away from the boat you are on.
no matter what, you know you have to be on the other boat. it's time..
in between these two boats.
there is the sea all around you. the waves may be lashing and the wind may be howling
and sometimes you feel that you have to walk on the water to get to the other boat cos there's no other way.

Keep your eyes on Jesus always as you walk on the water towards the other boat.
Bring Him into the new boat with you.and the wind will IMMEDIATELY die down.

To those whom it may concern,
my sisters-in-Christ.
=)

eclipse and the box of vicks

my dad remarked
"you want to bring the box of vicks and the mints over for your friend? the things which u sent over the other time?"

i shook my hands profusely at him and said "no lah no lah" with a tone of ridicule in my voice.

for who for what.
it's all worthless you say.

lazy monday

it's a lazy monday
i can't really rem how i spent my past few mondays..
i always get down to work on a monday afternoon even though officially it's supposed to be an off day..
but now it just seems so lazy to me..
with the sun shining so brightly outside, which is pretty a miracle since dark gloomy clouds seem to be the order of the day,
i feel like maybe a lil vit D will do me some good.
but then again i realise that i have a 7k race tmr..
and i think sleeping in would do me more good than running around outside.

so lazy.
but at least i'm not having that "scarcity" mentality or thinking or feeling i'm in lack of anything.

My God is my shepherd.
I shall not want
In Him i have no lack
no lack at all.

Kelly's moving, next up would be Christine, Trina, Marilene, Mich and Ezer.

i lead this abundant life, a different life.

while people are using their self effort to win over something,
i throw it away and abandon it at the cross.

while people are worrying whether they would die young or over a small naggling pain in their body,
i ignore the pain and confess i'm the healed of the Lord,
and during service yesterday, i was completely healed of my stiff neck when pastor prince prayed for those who had trouble sleeping.
too much overflow

while people tend to display their 'emo' side,
i'm so thankful that my God is a God of restoration.

As i say again
what can my small puny hands do in this world?

shalom peace.

whose hand?

whose hand is bigger?
my small puny hands or my God's?
hold everything with a loose hand.
after these tumbles and stumbles, i'm not going to do anything with my own effort.
anything that is in my life right now, it is from above.

"if she means so much to you, give her up to the Lord. He will take care of things for you."

I want to trust in His Word.

that for awhile, i realise the person whom i am after is not Jesus.
and now it all comes so clearly to me.
seek Jesus first.

a song of worship

a song of worship just lifts me up
right where i am.

wasihng of the living waters all over me all over again

it has been a week since i last heard pastor lian's msg
and yesterday during pastor prince's preaching, i just felt like i've been away from church for a mighty long time.

i thank You
for Your portion for me in this cg
my shepherd
my cg mates
there's more to know to experience to share about Your love for me.

grace.
grace.

i have so many things in my head to put them down but just when i'm typing, i'm just stoning in front of the comp
lazy to put these things down.

anyways.my observations these days
today there was this middle aged man dressed in the grey old school singlet and black army admin shorts
his shorts were pulled high, his socks were pulled high and he was wearing the army brooks shoes
on his butt there was powder marks

come on please. give a good impression of army to the public.
not like that?!
when i looked at him i was wondering why in the hell he was dressed like that?
just went back for reservice?
weird.

ministry
destined for greatness
a higher calling.

i need to talk to Him more.

our hearts, once reborn, it is made for one and only purpose
to worship Jesus
it is created only for Him to fill it up.
not by Man.

journey with God
only You can lead me
not by my small hands.

isn't it exciting to know that you are going through this challenge now
but His grace will just fill my life up as an example
so that next time i can share with others about this journey that i'm still walking through now.

let my WHOLE life be a testimony of Your grace
WHOLE life
so that Jesus can be glorified.

"above all else, guard your heart"

when you guard your heart against that illness in you, that illness will not last for long
Hallelujah
Praise the Lord

my shoulder did a fast one on me earlier on this week as i was doing pull-ups
it popped and i had to come down immediately
i crouched down and remarked,"no Lord this can't be, not now Lord not now"
i crouched down for about 3 minutes for my arm to recover, and i stood up.
i saw that my right shoulder was in an awkward position
"Shit is this going to be a dislocated shoulder?"
i just called onto His name profusely
in a momemt, my shoulder popped and went back to its natural position
i heaved a sigh of relief
but there was pain everywhere
the same pain that i had the first time i injured my shoulder
same injury same pain
same time i would take to recover?
i slowly walked back to the mess
a little crushed in my spirit
but i knew that hey it's just one of those attacks by the devil
how not to attack you when you are boldly proclaiming the Lord's death everyday in the morning?
i'm healed i'm healed i am the healed of the Lord

it took me awhile to get those negative thoughts out of my head
verses of "You make my bones strong and i shall be like a watered garden" just went through my head and isaiah 54 i think
the next day i was feeling down, going about in my office doing work
and i wrote down verses on strength
that night i just meditated on this verse

"the punishment that brought me peace,
was upon Him, and by His stripes I AM HEALED"

what peace? shalom means physical well-being, emotional well-being, spritual well-being
everything
as i massaged my shoulder, i could feel my pain on His shoulders
i could feel my pain on His shoulders
and best of all despite my pain on His shoulders
He shouldered the cross all the way to calvary

on sat, which's the next day, i felt much better in my shoulder
more mobility, less pain
of course i can choose to believe in the glucosamine pills i took oin fri night
but that isn't the real power food
it is the holy communion

best of all, the cg prayed for my shoulder on sat
and sunday the pain was totally gone
"the prayer of the righteous is effective"
i went to ecp for a run and decided to test my shoulder by doing pull ups just outside vjc
up i went, that's one rep
up i went, that's another rep
no sound, no pop, stil feeling okie till i did 10 and stopped
praise the Lord
that's when self doubt came in "sure or not Lord, so fast heal my shoulder? i took a few months for my shoulder to be okie, after a few times to the sinseh"
then immediately He told me "don't doubt my healing, never doubt the Lord's healing in me"

phoah i tell you
it was like a booster through my heart when the line came into my mind and burned my heart.

then i wondered, "whose voice is that talking? my own voice through my own knowledge or He is really speaking to my heart?"

but immediately to cease all rational thought and thank my God for this revelation

never doubt His healing for me
never doubt Him for anything
never doubt His promises for me

i blog myself happy!