a venture into a runner's mind
as i tried so hard to convince myself to wake up and just run those intervals, i mustered whatever energy i could muster and got out of bed
even as i was brushing my teeth and waiting for my dad to be done in his room, i was on the sofa still with second thoughts of heading out to the national stadium for my repeats.
my eyes were in a daze but when he came out of the room, it seems some psychomotor skills just pushed me to tie up my asics running shoes and i was ready, i hope.
when i reached the stadium praise God i saw a Caucasian runner running topless and he seems very much like an endurance athlete.
i went for my two rounds of warm-up at a snail pace, my legs still feeling sluggish.
i had to really warm myself up with drills before i start to press on my watch for the 1200m repeats.
while i'm running, here's what went through my mind:
to remind myself to focus on the pace, to keep a high leg turnover and reasonably good stride length.
reminding myself to breathe through my nose instead of my mouth
"Lord i can't, but You give me the strength to complete this"
"When i am weak, You are strong"
"Lord, i'm already dead, Your strength Your strength."
those thoughts of "is this the right thing to do? is this the right thing to say? i should not have done this, i should not have done that" ran through my head
and i remind myself i am the righteousness of God in Christ.
"doesn't matter whether i've made mistakes, are making mistakes or will make mistakes"
"i'm covered by Jesus and He makes my mistakes prosper even"
when i thought of the bold line above,i felt so negative and short of energy to complete the lap
and no replace that with Godly thoughts to strengthen me.
i was thinking,"If i'm going to let these negative thoughts come into my head during my 21km, i MATI already"
that i'm really not prepared for my 21km on aug 26th
to hit 1hr30min is going to be His grace and strength.
so let me boast not of my own training, strength or flesh, but boast of His glory in my 21km.
no matter how much i train, i don't think it's enough
and isn't it good news to know that i'm not qualified or disqualified by the flesh works i've put into running?
it's done.
even as i was brushing my teeth and waiting for my dad to be done in his room, i was on the sofa still with second thoughts of heading out to the national stadium for my repeats.
my eyes were in a daze but when he came out of the room, it seems some psychomotor skills just pushed me to tie up my asics running shoes and i was ready, i hope.
when i reached the stadium praise God i saw a Caucasian runner running topless and he seems very much like an endurance athlete.
i went for my two rounds of warm-up at a snail pace, my legs still feeling sluggish.
i had to really warm myself up with drills before i start to press on my watch for the 1200m repeats.
while i'm running, here's what went through my mind:
to remind myself to focus on the pace, to keep a high leg turnover and reasonably good stride length.
reminding myself to breathe through my nose instead of my mouth
"Lord i can't, but You give me the strength to complete this"
"When i am weak, You are strong"
"Lord, i'm already dead, Your strength Your strength."
those thoughts of "is this the right thing to do? is this the right thing to say? i should not have done this, i should not have done that" ran through my head
and i remind myself i am the righteousness of God in Christ.
"doesn't matter whether i've made mistakes, are making mistakes or will make mistakes"
"i'm covered by Jesus and He makes my mistakes prosper even"
when i thought of the bold line above,i felt so negative and short of energy to complete the lap
and no replace that with Godly thoughts to strengthen me.
i was thinking,"If i'm going to let these negative thoughts come into my head during my 21km, i MATI already"
that i'm really not prepared for my 21km on aug 26th
to hit 1hr30min is going to be His grace and strength.
so let me boast not of my own training, strength or flesh, but boast of His glory in my 21km.
no matter how much i train, i don't think it's enough
and isn't it good news to know that i'm not qualified or disqualified by the flesh works i've put into running?
it's done.
posted by santa monica at 8:28 PM
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