Cache (skip this post if you don't wish to read about my runs)
i've been wanting to blog since friday
but i just can't seem to get into blogger.
the webpage will always hang while i'm in the midst of getting in,
and i wondered what the hell the problem was. was it because of the lousy blogger website?
and all along i kept on thinking it was the website problem, nothing to do with my com.
till yesterday when i complained to my sis about it and she mentioned that maybe it's something wrong with the com that causes the hanging.
and this morning while trying to log in again, same problem surfaced till i logged into my gmail and there was this notice saying that i have to clear my cache to fix some problem in my mail system.
being desperate, i just went ahead and fixed the cache, and tada i could get into blogger easily.
darn..............
oh wells.
shall i go all the way back to friday?
anyways i was really thankful that i had an half day off, which allowed me to complete my really long run on fri evening.
i can say maybe it's because i'm more suited to run in the evening, or maybe i can say it's because in the evening, i have more energy to complete the long run since i already had breakfast and lunch. i can say maybe it's because of the energy gel i took after running my 1st hour.
well but i say that before the long run, i took holy communion knowing that i really cannot complete the long run. in fact before this long run on friday, i did another long run the week before and i just felt so unmotivated to complete the last 30min of my 23k at marathon pace. hence i just ran the whole 23k at a pace that's comfortable to me. well nothing wrong with that eh. long runs should be done at a comfortable pace which allows you to hold a conversation.
however, i just have this thing inside me that tells me that a run will be a junk run when you don't have a training focus for it or you don't push yourself hard enough.
well for this 23k run, i really enjoyed myself running at that comfortable pace and after the run, i just know that sometimes it's just good to really take a backseat and enjoy the run instead of trying to set a relatively higher standard for me to achieve.
condemnation could not get a hold on me.
i say this because in the past, when i can't really meet a certain standard that i've set for a particular training session, i will just feel lousy.
wells over time and after some reading, it's normal to have some good training days and some bad training runs.
back to my 26k on friday. i knew this time i'm aiming for the last 30min at marathon pace.
but i know my body can't and my flesh is weak.
hence i just took holy communion knowing that whether or not i can make the mark for the last 30min, Jesus took my missing-the-mark (sin) at the cross for me.
with that i've His strength for my run.
and true enough, i felt good for the 26k, with the last 15min running at marathon pace.
during the run, the area beneath my right ankle joint hurt like usual.
in fact this area will hurt when i'm going for a long distance at a slow pace or going for a long distance at a fast pace.
so instead of focusing on my pace, i was just focusing my pain in that area being put unto Jesus at the cross.
and towards the end when my pace was picked up, the pain in that area was gone.
and just today (monday)
i was so so so lazy. i woke up feeling so lazy. ate my cereal and went back to bed, with me telling myself that i should let the cereal digest first before going for my run.(what an excuse!)
true enough, a good nap it was and i woke up with the time screaming at me at 1115am.
thank God the weather was cloudy from the start, because seriously if the sun was furious at 1115am, i would have just pushed my run to the evening, another reason to prolong my nap and delay my run.
so those people out there who thinks i love-love runnning, think about it again.
there are really some days when i just totally don't feel like lacing up my shoes, don't feel like putting a foot ahead of another, especially when i know the workout ahead is going to be tough.
seriously if you ask me to just run 8k-15k at a leisure pace everyday, i might just do it. after all it's at a leisure pace, you won't feel any hurt in your legs, in fact you will just get bored doing such a long distance alone everyday.
i really don't know why i signed up for the marathon, which compels me to put some effort into training for it. it costs me 65 bucks anyways. good enough a reason for me to at least train for it.
but after my army half marathon, i told myself not to be so strict on my diet already, eat more and x-train more with less running. well if there wasn't the marathon, i would be living in the gym by now.
but yea lifting weights with the desire to grow big and training for a marathon is like an oxymoron.
it's like running your guts out and indulging in a plate of fried kuay teow immediately after that.
you are just going to cancel the effects out.
you can't grow big when you are putting in so much mileage in your runs.
likewise you can't really run fast when you have so much bulk on you. (look at the kenyans)
before anyone would think i'm -trying- to be like a kenyan, i am not.
nevertheless, there are also fast runners with alot of bulk on them.
but let's just say that i -feel- faster with less bulk on me.
after all, a huge and well vascularized chest would definitely add more resistance, in addition to the large wind resistance going at you when you are running along the beach.
when training for the army half marathon back in august,
i cut down on my carbs, i cut down on my gym time, and the main resistance exercises were mainly bodyweight exercises like push-ups and pull-ups.
i wanted to go fast.
but my clothes were hanging a little off me.
even the M size T seems a little loose.
this time round, i've put on some weight, heck a little about the stuff that's going into my mouth.
and yea back to my training run today
well i just went out there at the national stadium track and did my track workout relying on His strength all the way.
in fact after doing my 1st 1600m, i already felt like throwing in the towel and i really questioned myself if i can complete another 4x1600m
every round i had around the track, it was like a rhythm in tandem with my pace.
a breath out will be followed by two and a half steps with an exclamation of "Abba!" or "Jesus!", almost certain that He was right there with me.
if my memory doesn't fail me, during my 3rd 1600m, i really felt like my stomach would flatten itself and my guts will spill out on the washed-out crimson red track. and i'm not exaggerating here.
talking a little about the national stadium, there's just something surreal about just you and the stadium alone.
almost all of the times when i was there, it's just the empty stadium and me.
if it was an indoor track stadium, i'm very sure my running footsteps will ricochet off the steps of the stadium causing an echo. okie i'm just playing with my imagination.
after my last 1600m, i just conveniently payed 2.50 bucks to patronise the weights in the gym.
disclaimer:
If you think i'm crazy about training, exercising, dieting, you are so totally wrong. it's not about I I I. and i don't want to put my trust in all these.
These few verses often pop up by the Spirit during my training.
Ps 127
"Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain"
"Unless the Lord is going to bless my training, my run will be useless"
"I can all things through Christ who strengthens me," before i attempt to complete a set of weights.
"Christ the hope of glory in me" - well this verse just popped into me today while i was on my 800m recovery jogs in between my 1600m repeats.
and above everything
matthew 6:27
"Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added on to you."
after all, how can we put our trust in such things when in the old testament,
Daniel did not trust in the redemption of those foods offered to the pagan idols.
He requested to consume just vegetables to eat and water to drink.
Daniel 1:15 - "And at the end of ten days their features appeared better and fatter in flesh than all the young men who ate the portion of the king's delicacies"
Genesis 39
The Lord was with Joseph
Gen 39:6 "Now Joseph was handsome in form and appearance"
so much so that he was tempted with an indecent proposal.
Unless the Lord is involved in my everything, that thing is going to be done in vain.
but i just can't seem to get into blogger.
the webpage will always hang while i'm in the midst of getting in,
and i wondered what the hell the problem was. was it because of the lousy blogger website?
and all along i kept on thinking it was the website problem, nothing to do with my com.
till yesterday when i complained to my sis about it and she mentioned that maybe it's something wrong with the com that causes the hanging.
and this morning while trying to log in again, same problem surfaced till i logged into my gmail and there was this notice saying that i have to clear my cache to fix some problem in my mail system.
being desperate, i just went ahead and fixed the cache, and tada i could get into blogger easily.
darn..............
oh wells.
shall i go all the way back to friday?
anyways i was really thankful that i had an half day off, which allowed me to complete my really long run on fri evening.
i can say maybe it's because i'm more suited to run in the evening, or maybe i can say it's because in the evening, i have more energy to complete the long run since i already had breakfast and lunch. i can say maybe it's because of the energy gel i took after running my 1st hour.
well but i say that before the long run, i took holy communion knowing that i really cannot complete the long run. in fact before this long run on friday, i did another long run the week before and i just felt so unmotivated to complete the last 30min of my 23k at marathon pace. hence i just ran the whole 23k at a pace that's comfortable to me. well nothing wrong with that eh. long runs should be done at a comfortable pace which allows you to hold a conversation.
however, i just have this thing inside me that tells me that a run will be a junk run when you don't have a training focus for it or you don't push yourself hard enough.
well for this 23k run, i really enjoyed myself running at that comfortable pace and after the run, i just know that sometimes it's just good to really take a backseat and enjoy the run instead of trying to set a relatively higher standard for me to achieve.
condemnation could not get a hold on me.
i say this because in the past, when i can't really meet a certain standard that i've set for a particular training session, i will just feel lousy.
wells over time and after some reading, it's normal to have some good training days and some bad training runs.
back to my 26k on friday. i knew this time i'm aiming for the last 30min at marathon pace.
but i know my body can't and my flesh is weak.
hence i just took holy communion knowing that whether or not i can make the mark for the last 30min, Jesus took my missing-the-mark (sin) at the cross for me.
with that i've His strength for my run.
and true enough, i felt good for the 26k, with the last 15min running at marathon pace.
during the run, the area beneath my right ankle joint hurt like usual.
in fact this area will hurt when i'm going for a long distance at a slow pace or going for a long distance at a fast pace.
so instead of focusing on my pace, i was just focusing my pain in that area being put unto Jesus at the cross.
and towards the end when my pace was picked up, the pain in that area was gone.
and just today (monday)
i was so so so lazy. i woke up feeling so lazy. ate my cereal and went back to bed, with me telling myself that i should let the cereal digest first before going for my run.(what an excuse!)
true enough, a good nap it was and i woke up with the time screaming at me at 1115am.
thank God the weather was cloudy from the start, because seriously if the sun was furious at 1115am, i would have just pushed my run to the evening, another reason to prolong my nap and delay my run.
so those people out there who thinks i love-love runnning, think about it again.
there are really some days when i just totally don't feel like lacing up my shoes, don't feel like putting a foot ahead of another, especially when i know the workout ahead is going to be tough.
seriously if you ask me to just run 8k-15k at a leisure pace everyday, i might just do it. after all it's at a leisure pace, you won't feel any hurt in your legs, in fact you will just get bored doing such a long distance alone everyday.
i really don't know why i signed up for the marathon, which compels me to put some effort into training for it. it costs me 65 bucks anyways. good enough a reason for me to at least train for it.
but after my army half marathon, i told myself not to be so strict on my diet already, eat more and x-train more with less running. well if there wasn't the marathon, i would be living in the gym by now.
but yea lifting weights with the desire to grow big and training for a marathon is like an oxymoron.
it's like running your guts out and indulging in a plate of fried kuay teow immediately after that.
you are just going to cancel the effects out.
you can't grow big when you are putting in so much mileage in your runs.
likewise you can't really run fast when you have so much bulk on you. (look at the kenyans)
before anyone would think i'm -trying- to be like a kenyan, i am not.
nevertheless, there are also fast runners with alot of bulk on them.
but let's just say that i -feel- faster with less bulk on me.
after all, a huge and well vascularized chest would definitely add more resistance, in addition to the large wind resistance going at you when you are running along the beach.
when training for the army half marathon back in august,
i cut down on my carbs, i cut down on my gym time, and the main resistance exercises were mainly bodyweight exercises like push-ups and pull-ups.
i wanted to go fast.
but my clothes were hanging a little off me.
even the M size T seems a little loose.
this time round, i've put on some weight, heck a little about the stuff that's going into my mouth.
and yea back to my training run today
well i just went out there at the national stadium track and did my track workout relying on His strength all the way.
in fact after doing my 1st 1600m, i already felt like throwing in the towel and i really questioned myself if i can complete another 4x1600m
every round i had around the track, it was like a rhythm in tandem with my pace.
a breath out will be followed by two and a half steps with an exclamation of "Abba!" or "Jesus!", almost certain that He was right there with me.
if my memory doesn't fail me, during my 3rd 1600m, i really felt like my stomach would flatten itself and my guts will spill out on the washed-out crimson red track. and i'm not exaggerating here.
talking a little about the national stadium, there's just something surreal about just you and the stadium alone.
almost all of the times when i was there, it's just the empty stadium and me.
if it was an indoor track stadium, i'm very sure my running footsteps will ricochet off the steps of the stadium causing an echo. okie i'm just playing with my imagination.
after my last 1600m, i just conveniently payed 2.50 bucks to patronise the weights in the gym.
disclaimer:
If you think i'm crazy about training, exercising, dieting, you are so totally wrong. it's not about I I I. and i don't want to put my trust in all these.
These few verses often pop up by the Spirit during my training.
Ps 127
"Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain"
"Unless the Lord is going to bless my training, my run will be useless"
"I can all things through Christ who strengthens me," before i attempt to complete a set of weights.
"Christ the hope of glory in me" - well this verse just popped into me today while i was on my 800m recovery jogs in between my 1600m repeats.
and above everything
matthew 6:27
"Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added on to you."
after all, how can we put our trust in such things when in the old testament,
Daniel did not trust in the redemption of those foods offered to the pagan idols.
He requested to consume just vegetables to eat and water to drink.
Daniel 1:15 - "And at the end of ten days their features appeared better and fatter in flesh than all the young men who ate the portion of the king's delicacies"
Genesis 39
The Lord was with Joseph
Gen 39:6 "Now Joseph was handsome in form and appearance"
so much so that he was tempted with an indecent proposal.
Unless the Lord is involved in my everything, that thing is going to be done in vain.
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