REST.

rest. rest rest.
i thank God that there were two days for me to run during this week. another day tmr!
in fact for those two days, i really wanted to just nua at home after work, but He gave me the strength to carry on. and i love those runs with You Jesus.
the night breeze across my face, doesn't matter how the singlet hangs across my frame.
i just realize something, my singlet seems to hang upon my frame instead of fitting my frame.
never mind. God renews my youth like the eagles~
a night run always makes me sort out my thoughts with Him. In a sense it's a rest.
though rest can mean doing absolutely nothing at all..

my idea of a rest, there're many ways.
first is go for a run,
read a book
listen to sermons and just lie on the bed,
and of course, reading the Word feels restful to me.

ever since i've taken up this job, just feel the urgent need to set aside time every morning to just spend some quiet time with Abba.
cos everyday at the workplace, it's not a job whereby there's lots of time to surf net and do nothing.
every minute in the office, there's always something to do,
whether it is to catch up on reports, do this do that.
hence i always feel that the time in the morning is to strengthen me for the day ahead.
i used to like having that time at night,
but i realized the time in the morning now suits my spiritual soul much better..
His mercies are new every morning.

At night the dew of heaven fell, and manna fell along with it.
i'm now an advocator of morning quiet time. =)

Thank God for today.
i forgot to set alarm for this morning,
as usual as soon as my head hits the pillow, i'll just knock off.
i usually set my phone alarm just before i sleep, when i lie on my bed.
there've been times whereby i just fall asleep immediately and the next morning, the phone is strewn to God-knows-where with no alarm being set.

But yea, thank God for loving me so much that You want me to be part of this prayer chain.
You made Kelly to message me just in time for the prayer thing
You could have made me sleep longer and wake up later
but somehow You nudged me to wake up at 855am, automatically even without any alarm.
that 5mins was for me to brush my teeth, just in time for my 9am prayer slot. so that i wouldn't smell my breath too much when i pray.
You love the church, the people so much that You want to see this chain of prayers going on and on, that You have made all these events work together for Your good.
i feel so blessed that You have called me to be part of this.
thank You Abba!

Family time

Family time with the cg is always good.
i can be sitting there by the pool, not doing anything but i'm loving every moment of it.

and i don't know why, i have this desire to see the girls' soccer matches.
maybe the finals?
ever since some of us were at the airport to send pheobe off,
i don't know manx.
it just rises up in me to want to be part of their whatever journey they are taking,
whether it's singing, dancing, soccer, softball.

something which i caught from Anna.
and i thank God for that. =)

An emotional journey

as i left befrienders on sat, it was too emotional for me.
i guess that combined with my illness together with whatever stress for the past two months or so, i broke down.
I thank God for the relationships that were formed.
and ironically, through this project i felt more attached to the ministry because of the bonds formed..
however i know it's time to move on and really focus on what God wants me to do this season.

and i've realized once again.
whatever love or appreciation or whatnot that is given by man, it can only amount to so much and is limited.
but when i put my eyes to God, i know that such moments are eternal and that only He can reward me richly, my eternal and true source of provision.

so this where my breaking point is, as i've realized.
i've never thought myself to be strong.
and everyday i want to have a deeper walk with You.
to be real before You, to be real before man, my leaders, my cg mates.

Great leaders are great sheep, with Jesus as their true shepherd.
as i ask Him, how to how to?

just follow Jesus.
The rest will follow.

bah

blogger's drought.

Father God, i thank You for the grace to run even after a long day at work.
Every time i get to exercise, i thank You because it's You who gives me the energy to exercise.
You who gives me a disciplined mind to just relax and run with Jesus.

It's been a long time since i last journaled, but i know all i want is to walk deeper with you everyday.